BECAUSE I'AM TOO SHY

10 th class...

as i sat there in maths class ,

i stared at the girl next to me.

She was my so called "best friend"☺

and  i wishing she is mine.☺☺☺

But she didn't notice me like that,

and i knew it........

After class,

she walked up to me and asked me for 

the note she had missed the day before

i handed then to her.

She said"thanks".

And gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her , i want her to know

that i don't want to be just friends,

I love her but i'am too shy,

and i don't know why.

11 class

The phone rang .

On the other end it was her.

She was in tears,

mumbling on and on about how 

her love had broke her heart.

she asked me to come over

because she didn't want to be along so i did.

As i sat next to her on the sofa , i stared 

at her soft eyes.

Wishing she is mine.

After 2 hours ,kuch kuch hota hai movie,

and three bags of chips,

she decided to go home

she looked at me,said "thanks"

and gave me a kiss on the cheek........

I want to tell her , i want her to know that

i don't want to be just friends,

i love her but i'am too shy,

and i don't know why.

12 class

one fine day she walked to my locker

"my date is sick" she said.

"her not gonna ya" well,

i didn't have a date and in 7th class,

we made a promise that 

if neither of us had dates,

we would go together just as 'best friend'.

So we  did.

That night after everything was over,

i was standing at her front door step.

I stared at her as she smiled at me

and stared at me with her crystal eyes.

Then she said " i had a best time,thanks".

And gave me a kiss on the cheek

i want to tell her ,

i want her to know

that i don't want to be just friends,

i love her but i'am just too shy,

and i don't know why.

Graduation....

The day passed, then the week then the month.

Before i could blink ,it was our graduation day

i watched her perfect body

floated like an angel

up on stage to get her diploma.

I wanted her to be mine,but

she didn't notice me like that ,and i knew it.

Before everyone went home,

she came to me in her smock and hat,

and cried as i hugged her.

Then she lifted her head from my shoulder

and said "you're my best friend".

"thanks", and gave me a kiss on the cheek,

i want her to know

that i don't want to be just friend,

i love her but i'am too shy,

and i don't know why.

Marriage

Now i sit in the pews of the church,

that girl is getting married now,

and drive off to her new life

married to another man,

i want to her to be mine,

but she didn't see me like that,

and i knew it

but before she drove away,

she came to me and said"you came!"

she said "thanks" and kissed me on my cheek,

i want to tell her

i want her to know

that i don't want to be just friends

i love her but i'am  just too shy,

and i don't know why.

Death....

Year passed,i looked down at her coffin of a girl who used to be my best friend.

At the service ,they read a diary entry

she had wrote n her high school years.

That is what it read:

I stare at him wishing he was mine,

but he doesn't notice me like that,

and i know it

i want to tell him,

i want to know  that

i don't want to be just friends,

i love him but i am too shy

and i don't know why

i wished he would tell me he loves me!

...................I wish i did too..............

I thought to my self, and i cried!!!!!