Rumination

It started with anime, to drawing, to art and aesthetics. Writing existed, but only as a tool to create the flow of a comic story I've thought, a detailed plan on how it goes. The wonders of admiring books and craving to read one became apparent, with what I thought was merely curiosity, and a wanting experience to be fed. When in turmoil, diary entries were freedom to feelings. The wonders surface on drawing sessions, notebooks and pens became attractive, and scribbling the page is a temptation. The oblivion I had began to fade into a realization. Writing, in fact, was something I desired, I craved and needed. It came out surprising and elating, with the sense of a new found passion. I frequent on reading with an intent of learning. I started with fanfics. Fanfics were delivered neatly, cleverly and adeptly. Easy to read and understand. The canons or head canons of the authors are pretty much impressive, at the same time, amusing. PDFs and books were next, novelas from great authors. As expected, professionals write in a more detailed way. Phrases that seemed to be unrelated interconnects at some point of the book. No errors, no loopholes in the flow of the story. I noticed, the more I read the easier the words and sentences process. Just a little pause and thinking, then apply writing. The critique towards the works, the careful reading and cluster down makes understanding the style and writing palpable, therefore, a small orientation to an idea is made and acquired. With it, writing comes into process. Consistency is my Achilles' Heel, boredom and mood would only spike my passion. There are times when I clear them off the table and I would question on why and guess that my wonders has not end. As time progressed, I came to realize writing should be on a regular basis, not on moods nor boredom. I was eager to make it permanent, to deeply learn and muster the nature. I keep myself on tabs with writing, molding it into a responsibility, so to be fulfilled. Writing is, somehow, like drawing. Difficult, and a long process. It is art; inexplicable, wondrous and diverse.