a letter to someone

I'm tired of searching, so I stop.

I never plan on pursuing nor letting someone in, until you come along. 

No gonna lie, I  don't see you as someone I wanna be with. At first I just go with the flow. My mind and high standard denies you. 

I set my standard so high that I got bloated after I eat all the things I said about not lowering my standard for a guy.

You breakdown all my walls without we knowing. You're like a theft in the night that stole every refences and beliefs that I have for years. 

Hoping that this person will not let me down.

Hoping that you will not be with someone who will destroy the confident that  I BUILT for you. 

If you're not for me and if someday, you're not really destine for me. I hope that you will end up with someone who will love you more than I did and treat you right. 

I will hold you back nor beg for you to stay. I will just let you go with a smile in my lips and a tears in my eyes coz' I know when the time comes where I need to let you go, it will hurt so bad.