Unsent Letter #2

I know it's too late.
I know it's not right that's why I am here,
Confessing to myself,
Admitting all those hidden,
Restrained emotions
that I have kept for a long time..

It's hard.

My unrequitted love was never been easy.
I, even myself,
cannot accept the fact that I've fallen in love with someone I have never met in person.

I have fallen for someone unknowingly,
Lowering my shield.

I have regrets.

I never had the courage to tell you about this.
I am scared of taking risks.
Afraid of being abandoned again.
Afraid of being hurt and falling for the wrong person.

I've been so happy and excited every day because of you.
I like talking to you,
Teasing you and annoying you until you curse me...
I feel happy and comfortable as if we know each other for too long.
I feel free and normal.

I miss you.

I never had the courage to tell you what's on my mind coz I am not brave enough.
It's funny how we both trusted each other knowing that we both have trust issues.

I will miss all those crazy videos and photos you have sent to me.

I never had the chance coz you already have someone you love and cherish.

I don't want to be the reason of other girl's pain...

~Nugget
08-29-2019

❤