Do you still love me ?

The way you look at me
The way you smile at me
The way you talk to me
The way you care for me
The way you text me
The way you stand next to me

All those small things,
Yes, I have noticed them all
And,
Yes, I turned them all down
Tried a million times to push you away, far away !

I must have hurt you so much

If only I knew it a little earlier,
I would have heard you that day
Heard you say those three words to me !

I was a fool !
I chose to play dumb,

Thinking you are not the one for me
Thinking you will forget me
Thinking memories will fade
Thinking you will stay in the friendzone

It’s been days or is it months or is it years ?
I don’t know !

Do I have the right to miss you ? Do I ?
Do you still love me ?

Is it too late ?

Too late to ask,
For those glances from your eyes ?
For that happiness in your smiles ?
For that voice of yours ?
For that affection ?
For those emojis ?
For that protection ?

Can I get them all back ?

I feel I am losing them or have I lost them already ?

Whom should I blame ?
The society ?
My parents ?
Or
Myself ?

The blame is on me !

I should have told you, all those songs I wrote were about you
I should have told you, how much I loved you back then
I should have hold on to you tightly....

On the phase of,
Not letting my parents down
Not letting the society taunt me
I lost myself !

If only I was brave enough to….
Brave enough to face the world
Brave enough to fight for my love for you

We would have created a love rainbow
You and Me !
Sunshine and Rain ! 

If we could meet again….
Can you love me ?