(...and a small exhale of my heart crossed the distance between us).
My fingers stilled, my eyes opened
(Your voice filled my mind, that resonating lullaby of a known stranger),
For I could finally see the world.
(And I could no longer deny you)
(You were the shadow behind me) I felt your fleeting featherlike touch
(You were the light I could not find in myself) and your smile, always your smile.
I smiled your smile, the one I have never seen
(That gentle darkness, that ache between my ribs)! But I doubted myself
“(Am I crazy, can this all be real)?” I wanted it to be real.
But this doubt (You see, this doubt)
It set inside of me and made its way like a worm
Into my heart (it killed us both).
This doubt, this silent slow tempest
(I carried it within, like a sick seedling)
it killed us both
(Now I wonder what could have been)
(For I) Please hear me (have loved you) Please listen to me
(Forever)
And now I’m left remembering about that time when
a small exhale of my heart
crossed that distance between us,
(And your smile,
Always your smile).