Dear Bestfriend,
You're in pain again and I know the reason. It's HER again, right? You really love her eh? You love her that much that you can't even see that I'm in pain too. In pain of loving you. Yes, I love you. Wait let's rephrase that. I’ve loved you from the start but you don't know. You didn't notice at all. All my concern, care, effort and everything, you just thought it was an act of a friend, a bestfriend.
Am I really just a bestfriend for you? Is that what you can only see? Why? Why can't you see that I'm madly in love with you?! That I'm hurting whenever I see you suffer because of her. She, who do nothing but hurt you. Why? Why do you still love her despite of all? Why can't it be me that you love? I'll never hurt you like what she always did. I'll protect you. I will love you more than how you love her. I can be more than her. Oh yes I can be more than her yet… I know. I know. You can't love me. What's the reason? Simply because I am not HER. I will never be her. I am just me, your bestfriend. In your eyes, I will always be your very own bestfriend. Your bestfriend whom you asked what gift you should give to her and what I think she like. Your bestfriend whom you shared stories about how much you love her, that you'll do anything just for her. And me, being a fool, answered all your questions and listened to all your stories about her. Oh, I'm indeed a fool. How pathetic isn't it? What can I do? What should I do if she is your happiness? I don't have the right to object. I am just a mere bestfriend. I need to be happy for you wait, no, it is not I don't need to but rather I supposed to be happy for you right? I don't need to be selfish because I am your bestfriend and being your bestfriend, I should support you. If that’s what makes you happy then so be it. It's okay as long as I am with you. I… still can endure this pain. And even this pain will eat me up whole, I will never stop loving you until my heart’s last beat. But always remember, if you think you can't bear it anymore, just look at your back. I'm just there, waiting for you and will forever wait.
I love you bestfriend, always.
Love,
Your Bestfriend