I agree with your opinion that there are some broken things that can never be fixed, but it doesn't mean that they choose not to be fixed. In the first place, they never wanted to be broken. It's just that some things are too fragile for some people to handle. Nor do they want to leave a mark because it looks awful -- inside and out. But I'm glad you're okay with that.
I'm glad to know that you're not the stereotype-kind of guy who promises to fix a broken girl and then later, leave. That's good enough to know that you're, at least, not trying to give false hope. But I'm telling you that it will not be easy to understand a girl like me. Every word and every action have different meanings and I will tell you that it is sometimes confusing and frustrating. Everything that makes up my life is like a piece of master art painted on a piece of napkin. It's hard to appreciate it.
I know that you wanted me to see the world differently and I appreciate that. I just hope that you can see the world through my eyes so that you'll fully understand how it feels to be broken. In that way, you can finally say that you understand me and I will ask you to repeat what you've promised.
That's so cruel of me.
I'm telling this neither because I have an excuse for being broken nor because I want to give you hardship. I'm telling this because I want to know if you will stay after knowing the whole story. Being broken is not that painful and you're right, I choose to be broken sometimes. Every shattered piece of me hurt like hell but it hurts me more to know that no one is here to fix me up. Every word that I will say, every action that I will make is just a half-truth of me. The truth is -- my happiness was once long gone.
You said that there is a sanctuary that could be created from broken pieces, that there is a place where we both belong. I think I can only find that sanctuary if you will stay and that is something that I would keep in my memories.
You don't have to make me happy. I can be happy alone. You don't need to fix me up. I'm already torn. You don't have to understand me. I am not an ugly scribble. You don't have to complete me. I'm not a puzzle. All I want you to do is to STAY. Stay as long as you can. Stay, even if it's not for a lifetime. Stay with me, stay by my side. Just Stay.
Sincerely,
The broken pieces of me