Do you really want to know?
All the places I can go
In my dark and twisted mind
All the colors I can find
I’m the lark that’s sitting still
I’m a coward sent to kill
Looming in within my woes
I’m a shadow that bent, explodes
In between the setting sun
Tattered eyes, no longer young
Watch with a gaze of strangled awe
All the birds adjoin their flight
I want to fly above the sun
I want to lose my feet and run
But all the darkness is within
With all the battles I can’t win
Watch my darkest fears unfurl
Set all free, no longer dull
For all that I’ve wanted done
I’ve been too weak, too afraid and stung
I’m the freedom fighter in the dawn
I crave for life that’s praised and sung
I want live, to laugh, to fall
I want to feel, feel anything at all!
But I’m strung too tight
Buried too deep
Too tired, too apathetic, too detached
Since from the sidelines, all I’ve done is watch
But I’ve had enough of it all!
Now you’ll have to put off with my gall
I have to run, and jump, and laugh, and cry and...
And…
and…
I’m the one who’s sitting back
Always all alone
No, please, don’t go!
Not when I’m not strong
Because my sins are carved too deep
With all the hopes that I can’t keep
And all I’ve wanted is too far away
Out of reach in a mind being torn by war
Maybe someday all will be fine
In that day, I will be fine
When the world’s no longer cold
When I no longer feel this old
Cause all I’ve wanted was some warmth
To bring back joy, and memories, and
To light that darkness in my mind
And all the longing I can find