Encountered a feeling
Of fear and guilt
Together
How can I live a normal life
When my people
Are suffering
Never seems that
We all are mentally
Disturbed
I am mentally disturbed
How come humans
Be so dreadful
How come?
I believed in humanity
When my people were dying
I believed in mankind
When we all were
Curtailed for a long
Very long time
I believed in kindness
And neglected all the atrocities
When a 16 year old was trashed
And crushed under a vehicle
By a human
Is it?
Is it a way to live
Felt it from very near
I was present there
I have not seen myself
In such a pain
And guilt of being
A human
I am not able to
Say,
What my soul is feeling
Is it sadness, or anger
Or Am I guilty
It happened many times before
When my heart was throbbing
With extreme agony
Above everything,
They neglected it
Showed like nothing happened
And blamed us
Blamed me
For doing all this
Am I responsible for it
Am I accountable for the
Weapons they use
To make my future dark
To crush my dreams under
A vehicle of
So called humans
Am I responsible?
Blank page.....
Or should I write,
A citizen of kashmir, an integral part of India?