An Elegy

how many times have you died? / brutally killed / stabbed / shot dead / aborted / poisoned / cursed / taken for granted / how many times did my hands wrapped it's fingers around you / and choked you to death / i am nothing but a murderer / a killer / always onset for my next victim / but it will always be you / a different face / a different body / but it's also you / i never plan to kill you / but my hands always itch to just pull the trigger / like / right now / i wonder / as i lock you up /starving / inside the corners of my mind / how long will it take for you to die? / again