Be Yourself!

I often come across people who tell me to be 'Realistic' in nature. They tell me to be realistic with my thoughts and wishes and when I speak out my mind? They get amused and say, 'Gosh! for once please! talk real'.

Honestly? I am tired. I am tired of not being myself. Am tired of not being taken seriously by this society. Just because I chose to be the sarcastic and the funny one in my circle of friends, are my thoughts and words to be taken as a joke on a everyday note?

I am made up of various strata of skin, all of different thickness and varieties. The wardrobe in my mind is filled with different versions of myself. Whenever, I come across every new person my mind automatically gets me changed into a new skin. My thoughts which I speak out varies from person to person. I camouflage into a new person with a new personality every moment. Well, I guess, in this area even a chameleon is also better than me. At least, they don't change their personality every now and then.

Whenever I think of penning down my thought into a quote...something stops me. My conscience starts working high at such a point. I stop to wonder what if someone has already had this quote written and published under his/her name and what if am caught and trolled around social media for plagiarism. It's better to just leave my thoughts to the pages of my personal diary than to be blamed for some innocent mistake. But somewhere deep within, am also, afraid to present something new to the society with a fear of my ideas getting rejected dwelling in my mind.

I recently came to know about a famous fashionista personality of all time from reading the new guide published by Lakshya Datta 'The Second Skin of A Story'. It is none other than Alexander McQueen. He was one such artist who had never feared to express himself through his fashion work. He never feared to invent the new. He never wore any second skin or personality to please others. He was true to himself from the very beginning and until the very last. 

Alexander McQueen was honest to his inner soul and that's exactly what he presented on the outside too. I also want to be honest to myself but am afraid. Many a times, I have tried to seek answers to the fears dwelling inside my mind and soul but I failed and ended up with nothing except deep darkness all around just like a blackout. I am tired to be 'just like others' but am not tired of searching for the motivation so that, 'I can be just myself'.

I want people to find me perfect the way I am. I want to own a personality true to my inner and outer self that would develop into a personality and I as a better version of myself with a new experience every day. I want to and I surely will. If I can you can too, just believe in yourself.

"be yourself, not your idea of what of what you think somebody else's idea of yourself should be." Keep this in mind that was once said by Henry David Thoreau. 

I say, 'Be Yourself! Love Yourself!'