Because its real.

The alarm rings at 7am..in this beautiful room that now glows bright with the sun peeping in through white curtains that have little lilac lilies painted on them.. a girl wakes up rubbing her eyes after a good nights sleep with a broad smile on her sleepy face, like they show in movies..but that girl is not you.. because you barely slept.. you kept staring at the clock, watching the hands as they go on forever, tracing the circle they make, and wishing they never strike 7, that you can just lie there and watch the time till the end of time.

You pick your phone to close the alarm, and your group chats are flooding with laughing smileys for a funny picture of your professor going viral.. you type a 'omg ha ha' but no, you did not laugh..
It also shows you have 37 unread messages, because you never want to read them, and never reply to..

You try to get ready, matching colors of your dress seems so hard..how do they wear such bright, such warm and happy colors in perfect blends and combinations? You dont understand colors anymore..you never wear any jewellery.. how do the girls get perfect lipstick shades, you dont even feel like putting kohl..but then people see your swelled up eyes and ask you 'you look sick,are you okay'? So you wear it anyway..

You make it to the class, sit at your seat which is at the corner ofcourse..talking less, calculated words, never more than what is asked and what is required..your friends now take a groupie and you come close to them, just enough to be a part of it, and smile just wide enough to not attract any 'you look sad, are you okay?'
And thats how you make it through yet another day, dodging yet another movie plan 'sorry, i have guests coming over' but when they actually do, you say  'i have an assignment' and stay upstairs in your room!

You dont feel like eating, mindlessly you stare at the fork, the cold silver that shines. but you can only think of how it digs into the pea and wonder how deep it can go..can it hurt your otherwise numb skin, is pain the only sensation you could feel, but for once atleast you will feel something and then perhaps you will feel alive..
but when your parents notice it more than once, you eat anyway..

Finally, you are alone in your room..into yet another sleepless night.. slowly, it feels like the four walls of your room have started coming close..as if trying to trap you..closer with every second passing.. first you try to escape, but there is no door, there is no way.. closer.. should you scream? But what if someone hearsyou ?
So, ultimately, helplessly, you give in..you give yourself in, you let it close down upon you, like a box and you trap yourself in it..it gets dark..now you cannot see, you can only hear you breathe, but you suffocate..

Why is this happening to you? You have everything you need, there is no reason.. no heartbreak, no accident, no failed semester..you had a normal ordinary life, this can't be happening to you!?

Yes it can! And its happening to many 'normal and ordinary' people around us!
Stop telling them its nothing because its real.
Stop telling them it will go away just watch this movie, because it will not.
Get them help, and more importantly, when you need it, seek help !!