Borders Apart-3. To Eternity And Back.

.......Continued from chapter2. Serendipity

" Nine days were petty nine days.... days of memories, days of fantasy. I enjoyed to my fullest extent- shopping, clicking,eating lots and lots of yum street food. Well, travel sounded fun ever since I were a child. All put together....I didn't miss you Ahaan." I said teasingly after summing up about my road trip."Hell, you're rude but still you should send me the sketches, you are good at them!" he appreciated. "What really? Making fun of me?"I doubted that appreciation. "Not by any means dear lady, the pleasure's all mine when I compliment you" he said in a deep voice."What do you mean, gentleman?!" I chuckled laughing it off as it were a joke. 

After a long pause he sighs..."hey I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you...Ahaan you okay?"I said worried. Between suppressed sobs ..."yes.." he whispered. "I'm so crazy. Really...I didn't mean that..." I said in a low voice sad and ashamed. "I missed you a lot Nisha, I'm alone...totally alone...as far as I know my parents don't expect anything from me..they just want me to get a degree, a job and to get married at some point that's it" he spoke....crying. For the first time I heard him cry."You make me feel good, the ambition inside you just keeps my torch burning further. Losing you will be like going into a world of darkness. You are my light Nisha." he added getting a bit relaxed after saying maybe everything that was in his heart. 

Oh! Did he just say that...I was his light? I mattered to him? "Why did you make me so important?" I said in shock. It was nice of him...but it scared me. No one till date has told me something like this not even my parents...wait no hold yourself Nishaaa...no! Fine I give up. Tears rolled down my cheeks.He said "No one has ever cared for me, when I did not even tell you I had a soar throat you knew. I don't have to communicate it through words...you come to know my feelings,my problems and me." I smiled between the silent tears, my voice couldn't come out and when it finally did it was hoarse. " You think so but...it just common sense..umm.. you were coughing and your voice wasn't ok...that's it.."I managed wiping my tears away. I composed myself. I tried to be okay...but I'm NOT okay..

"Defying me, aren't you?...It's okay...you won't accept that you are good and you deserve the compliments. That's it , I can't say any further Miss.I'm Allergic and Intimidated by Compliments Girl!". Finally he is not crying!! I heaved a sigh of relief. " I'm not worth it, I have flaws too...doesn't mean I will be this good every single time, I may become cranky, do stupid stuff, get angry for no reason maybe, be rude and unethical and say things I should not, then??" I blurted. Oh!! Did I?? Jesus, yes I did! "Everyone will, I will too what's abnormal in that? ...I least expect you to be ethical and composed self all the time...you're innocent and beautiful just don't kill it like that....Breathe...!" he comforted. 

"I have to go Ahaan....I have work.." I said, really intimidated this time. He goes playing those strings again...only HE could do it so far."Really Nahh!.." he said."um.. thanks! for all the compliments....but..I have to go...bye"I said ...let me go plzz."You deserve them...don't thank, smile okay..bye take care."he said finally! "Okay bye".I disconnected the voice call.

.....And I turned around and jumped, shocked to see my little brother "What work huh?!" he asked. " Who will finish your project...chal bandar saara din masti karta, ab chal !"I said. SAVED!!

The next morning I had a text from Ahaan...instead of a good morning message or quote it was a request..." Aaj video chat ur (India) timing : 6pm. Ok?". Why?? I tried to think on what he was trying to do. I texted "Y?". He replied " well I wanna talk, I need 2 tell u sumthin 4 which we need 2 be face-to-face." What the heck?! "voice call karle" I replied trying to be calm."Nhi yr...just do it plzz"he requested."okay" I said. Fine. It won't be that bad." :D :D awsmm! ;)" He replied. Crazy him. I owe an apology for yesterday though. I agreed considering that.

6pm.

I am on my terrace, in a red t-shirt and black jeans, my long brown-almost black hair combed into a high ponytail. The casual me was ready to meet my 'border ke uss paar wala friend' .My phone and earphones in my hand. My phone rings ...video call..I answer...HE pops up. White shirt, blue jeans, hair done well. "First date" he utters. " First Friend Waali Date" I stressed. "okay...terrace pe?" he confirmed. "Tu bhi? " I smiled. "Fine seriously speaking, Tujhse achcha koi dost nahi tha mera and frankly shayad nahi hoga...umm..I want to tell you something" he starts. "hmm go ahead" I promt . "Yaar dekh you are special to me and I know that I'm special to you too. Do mahine hone wale hai. Mere liye this time was the most amazing time of my life aur...jab tu gayi thi 9 days ke liye....I felt empty, lonely and shattered. Look I liked you from the very beginning...and now I realized .....I LOVE YOU" He confessed. "Mazak mat kar!!" I said trying to believe it was a joke. "I am not joking I REALLY LOVE YOU" he confirmed. "Pagal toh nahi ho gaya?? Like for what? We are good friends...best friends....and ye sab, No yaar" I said. 

"Love is not my thing...I'm not ready for it...I have barely known you..we never met..I broke my rules...that is good enough." I said. He stared at me. "kyu yaar?? I like you from a year, I looked at your profile everyday...and then one day in the middle of the night I got the courage to send you a friend request... the things I told you that day ....I might have practised and edited them for so many months. My luck you were awake and online and then at the end you sent me the friend request! I was so happy. Asman pe thaa!....*he looks down* We talked...I liked you...we talked even more...I like you even more...then you left...I fell in love with you..And I Love You even more, as the days pass by it gets deeper and stronger and better.." he breathed. The satisfaction on his face showed how the weight in his heart was shed off." You have two options we remain friends or we never talk again" I said. I did not want this.. no relationship..no boyfriend..

"I need you" he said pained by my sentence ."Then let's just be friends"I told. "I can't handle that. I love you..."he said. "Why can't you? Where did all this come from??" I said angry and rude. "Pleassseee" he pleaded. "No Ahaan, let's part ways please..I can't handle a relationship..I just can't believe in it...If we are meant to be then we may meet again ...Good Bye." I said. " Goodbye.." he said in tears...."I'm Sorry...."I said holding back my tears...."Don't be I should have waited...for some more time..." he said tears dripping down his chin wetting his white shirt. " You can still...being my friend" I told. " Kya guarantee? Tu girl friend banegi thode time baad?"he chuckled while crying."Zero percent." I said smiling a tear rolling down my cheek." Mera jaana hi theek hoga...tujhe aur mujhe takleef hogi" he said. I cried...harder...."Tu mera best friend hai na yaar why are you doing this to me?" I said crying and short of breath..."Apna dhyan rakh...kaam hi sab kuch nahi hai apna time nikala kar..khud pe dhyan de.., you are beautiful, caring, kind, sweet, frank, amazing... huhhh! I love you .... more than anything..to eternity and back..you will always be my life. I will try to move on... dekhte hai ek saal se hila nahi ... god knows" he said. "Moron, I love you but not in that way..." I said. "That's good enough! Wapas aaunga yaad rakh" he joked.."Okay tu bhi dhyan rakh I'm proud of my friend and just love yourself bye ..." but we did not disconnect the call we stared at each other crying at ourselves..our situation...this hell bent border...and our unmatched love.

He wiped his tears and signaled me to wipe mine. I did as he said...'I love you.' he lip moments. 'I love you too' I lip moment back. 'You're amazing my love' again lip momenting. 'I'm not your love..' I lip momented too. 'I know' he lip moments . He blew a kiss to me, I looked away. I waved bye...he waved back.....

It's over... he unfriended me...I blocked him for the sake of my vulnerable self...which might have gone back and pleaded and agreed to do anything to be his friend..but no... I shouldn't..! I cried for half an hour at every memory I had of him at every compliment he gave ..at every bit of him...at losing him...at loving him as a friend...at his love of a different sort. I went through all the pictures I had of him, all our chat in these two months.

7:45 pm

I washed my face but my tears had created lines on my face, my eyes were red and my nose blocked...I had never cried so hard..never. I went down to the living room. My mom was calling out for me in the kitchen, I went in "Where were you all this time?? Come on now help me here, cut those vegetables." she said. She looked through me. She could not  see anything...wow! Anyways thank god she did not. 

I just finished doing that and my dad came home calling out for me. I washed my hands and went back into the living. " Your tickets have come and everything is confirmed...you are going to the university you liked. They accepted the admission. Congrats beta!" he said smiling. He was very happy. Too happy to notice my face and my eyes, I hugged him... "Thanks Dad, It's great news....so I leave in a month" I said holding my tears, pain and suffering inside. " Yes. 3 weeks and 2 days to be precise Princess" he said. "Okay King, your wish is my command!" I said. 

Everyone was excited , except me.. all through the shopping and instructions and formalities...I was going to live my dream but crying myself to sleep every night? I missed him....infact for the first time I really missed a person. I needed him badly. I now felt how he did, when I was away. Somehow, the last day came all my little chaps sleeping in my laps for the last time. I kissed their foreheads and said I loved them. They hugged me tight. I instructed everyone on how they should help each other, how they can contact me, how they should help all the elders...everything. I made them believe they were not alone, we made a pact ...well ... 'A Peace Treaty' to be precise that we shall not fight! 

I was at the airport....I couldn't just resist. I unblocked him...."You will never find me, I'm going too far but hey... I love you too" I messaged. I did it. I said it. "Love me forever?" he asked. "To eternity and back" I replied. "Bye, Miss you"he said. "Bye, miss you too" I said. I felt lighter than ever before. I don't have to look back on it.I don't want him to be sad and carry him on when I can't give him what he wants. All said and done, now it is time for me to accomplish my dreams.I sighed closing my eyes and opened them...and got into the line for boarding my flight.

After About 2 years

"IT'S BEEN MORE THAN TWO YEARS SO FAR, WE NEVER SPOKE AFTER THAT DAY.....YES AHAAN I LOVE YOU....MORE THAN FOREVER.... TO ETERNITY AND BACK....LIKE YOU SAID IT GETS DEEPER AND STRONGER AND BETTER EVERYDAY....." I spoke to myself...looking out from my window at the snowfall and the very beautiful city of London....

Is this the end? How will Nisha's life be later? Will they meet? Find out in Chapter 4. Second Chance