Why should I mince my words?
When you were none too subtle in abandoning me?
Using my mother's death as your convenient key to insanity.
Sure, your brethren raised me as their own----
Their own stressball.
Squished underneath their palms because frustratingly, I was another mouth to feed.
I was motherless and fatherless,
With no one to be on my defense.
In your madness,
you left me like a pig to slaughter.
Since then, I only saw you as pathetic.
You made yourself a constant presence of misery I didn't create for myself.
Instead of being the daughter whom you should be raising,
You made me take care of you.
Forced to atone for whatever sin you've made in your life...
Forced to put on a smile...
Forced not to cry...
(It would help you go back to the way you were, they said.)
It's been 20 years now.
Pure and utter bullshit.
When I got a job, I was forced to pay for you ----
and for them as 'gratitude' in caring for you.
I was told to fulfill the whims of your and my 'caretakers'.
I was told to work hard for you.
I was told to study hard for you
That I had to dedicate my life in the service of you
Because one day, I should take care of you.
When you have never been there for me when I needed you the most.
No one saw it as unfair.
No one regarded how I felt.
It was all simple math to them.
I'm the one obligated to clean after your shit.
Simply because I'm your daughter.
And now,
As a daughter you've never fathered for 20 years,
As a daughter who fended for herself because she couldn't depend on the only person she could've had,
I will leave you.
Simply because I am a person.
No matter how much you'll wail for me..
No matter how much your family will hate me..
No matter what other people would label me..
I am born to be free.