dear samson / it just came to my knowledge / that people are blaming me for your downfall / the reason of your undoing/ that i was a judas / the traitor/ while singing praises to you in the morning / i betrayed you overnight / i am the eve / who persuaded adam to eat the fruit / that i am the origin of sin / a sinner / unworthy of forgiveness / for using my body to lure you in / to trap you / their beloved hero / to prove unto them that you are not invincible / that i am a sin / of unfiltered blood / a harlot overflowing with lust / dirty / a natural man that satisfies the craving of the flesh / an immoral being that stains his immortality / but how could your people do this to me?/ denying me of all things holy / rebuking me of sanctity / to be called as a saint / that i am not like Daniel / the one who tamed the beast / locked up in the den / made you kneel down before me / humbling you with my presence / but you refused to acknowledge that i am lazarus who conquered death / esther who bended the rules for her people / that despite being a woman / she entered the throne room without being summon / that if women empowerment was a thing back then / i would be th emma watson of my time / but instead you added me to the list of all the names of all the women you labeled as sin / cleopatra of egypt / helen of troy / how come you came to made an account of all the things they have loosed / their kingdom?/ their life? / their power? / what about ours? / what about mine? / the way we offer our body / liked sacrificial lambs / have you not considered me as a hero? / have you not? / hopeful, delilah.
i imagine delilah writing this letter / and how i wish samson could really read it / And how i wish i could write a letter to him / like how i write this letter for delilah / how i wish i could be brave / like how brave i wrote delilah / i am tired of hiding behind metaphors / of symbolism / of poetry / i am tired of understanding you / descendant of samson / son of adam / i am the creature who stole your rib / but haven't you taken enough of mine already? / when I was six / you showed me the evil who live under my bed / introduced me to him / he get to know each part of my body for the first time / when I was eight you pin me in a cross / i thought i was holy / when i was ten you made my body a faultline of miracles / making me shatter an earthquake / when I was eleven you baptized me / immersed me on dark waters / when i was twelve / you died for me / when I was thirteen your demons started following me around / when i was fourteen your demons followed me around / when I was fifteen your demons followed me around / when i was eighteen, you was still around / i am twenty-three now / you decided to live inside my closet / i can hear your bones rattle every time i closed my eyes at night / haven't you taken too much already? / I can't write letters to you so I started writing scarlet letters through my skin and blood/ writing the sins of my past on flesh / oh god / please forgive this sinner / for I have sinned.