the demon came out..

i knew you so well and it was mutual , you knew me so well . i remember the sweetest memories you did my classwork because i was sick, and remember you tied your white handkerchief with warmth when i was hurt,the funniest was me crying to sit beside you in class because i couldn't share you............remember when you scolded that girl who threw my food(you were my sword)............. i remember ,don't want to but i can't give your position to someone else..... we were the colors of rainbow .......i retain the puerile memory of you and me in the ground gossiping ,playing. life was serene like river, clattering yet peaceful,noisy yet calming........why did you this? or maybe why did i let you do this . when did the road around us locked our foot. when did the thread connecting us became so fragile that neither of us could tie the knot again.......... i tried but maybe it was too meek that i wasn't enough. when i look back yore a sudden confusion blurs my mind ;should i look at those memories we created or cry that we won't be able to recreate them. we stayed in touch but the touch lost it's warmth.....we talked but we didn't discuss..........we saw each other's profile but never commented.............we wished on birthdays but none of us had the enthu to call at 12.00 a.m.. so childish we were ........so perfect we were and now............... . it was all so difficult without you but i managed ,this broken vase managed to beautify itself with ribbons , this heart became emontionally inaccessible, this human started believing sentiment was a chemical defect.....your sudden disappearence made me believe i was flawed ,maybe you were too good for me and i lost my heart in the process of searching myself.................i started believing that caring was a dangerous disadvantage. i still am afraid of that pain

little did i know your presence could break it..........why the hell did you come back ? why did it suddenly became a priority to contact me after all those years?how did you have the audacity to ask my if i was fine when you knew you had broken me in a way i could't recollect myself.....................i felt a stranger after talking to you... i knew we weren't the same in fact we hardly knew each other but why the hell did you come again to make me realize we weren't the same , why did you come to break my heart again , break my childhood fantasies again.............i was the weaker one ,i guess you were always the stronger one but even after all these days you have a special power , your "sorry"  still made my eyes moist.......but why?you are abysmal but i still get enamored.........

the journey from being sisters(paragon friend) to strangers was long ,long enough to reinvent me but the void is still there . i know ALONE IS WHAT I HAVE ALONE PROTECTS ME buttttt i hope you think about me sometimes

wounds can reopen,

memories can resurface,

the path we walk upon have demons underneath.....