First of all, don't expect an answer to that. I'm honestly asking that question to myself and maybe even to anybody who reads this if they know. When I googled this question-of course I was not waiting for miraculous answer but you know...maybe-the only things that popped up were quotes to basically encourage you saying that "if you try hard you can do it!", some psychological analyses that I wouldn't even dare open knowing they won't help me much except from tricks and tips that you can do to your brain so you believe that thing that you thought was impossible and therefore make it possible. And the third response was "-- steps to make your dream come true". Of course I'm not judging any of these sites, who am I to? But I know for a fact that it really wasn't what I was looking for. I spent the whole evening watching people dance on videos on YouTube.
I don't know about you but I'm a big fan of kpop and Korean culture and how they work hard to get performances... And I watched many covers because inside of me I wanted to do the same, grab a camera and give'm what I got for once in my life. Well, I still don't know what is stopping me.
So, my question still remains. But also, is that really what I want to do? Do I know for sure that this the skill of mine that I want to go for? I mean, maybe I'm an extraordinary violinist but I don't know it. Ugh the struggle...
Quick not: Although I seem like a pretty melancholic teenager, these are things that are in my mind, but I'm not that much of a negative or boring person, I swear. :)