Does Love suits me?

Every love story is beautiful. And ours will be more beautiful. I think mine would be the one of the beautiful pieces of my life. With the unconditional love and feel, i was raised by my parents and i was born and bought up in hyderabad city of India. I think it would be greatness of my character that I am a very reserved person which my mom never wanted to be. She used to scold me for my reservedness to mingle up with the strangers but NO, which i remained my character till date. Books used to be my favorite hobby and writing poetry is my lovely habit.

So, i just completed my schooling in my "Hyderabad". Yep, its my Hyderabad which would i love to live in. And after my +2, I joined in local college which used the so called name called Education with their damn torturing methods of educating their students. By god's grace i was done with +2 and out of my college. The only girl who made me complete my +2 was sirisha who took me to the next level of world with her beauty and cutenesss. But she even dont know about me and it was just one-sided crush from my side. And finally, i stepped into my B.Tech and everything changed for a while. There goes my first love in my 1st year of B.Tech. She is Anjali, whom i admired most by seeing her eyes as the most beautiful part of her. and finally on one of the wonderful occasions, I proposed her. Her only reply was " You were very good friend of mine. And how can you expect a thing called "Love" from me. And moreover why should i love u? Are you a handsome hunk like the college's Mr. Fresher or a topper in your academics. Yeah, u may ask me that y u were so much close to me when u didn't loved me? Yep, i am close to u only because to clarify my doubts with u regarding maths and physics. Yeah, i am close to u only because to complete my assignments. Yeah, i am close to u for just completing my works to be done. I pity u my boy and just go to hell!"

I was standing like a piece of stick and tears made their flow. The only thought that restrained my mind all through is that "I cant live without her!". And I decided to end my life.

2nd phase of my life ( Sushma) :-

After that heart breaking incident, I decided to end my life with that painful heart. But only hope that gave me trust on life is "Sushma". Actually she is my school classmate and i even dont know her completely in my schooling as I used to be very reserved then. But during my this phase of life, she eventually got to know about my state of mind and texted me in facebook to be mentally strong. And eventually we used to talk periodically. She completely occupied my mind that even I came over my thought of ending my life. I think that was September 23,2016. She proposed me for love. Literally I was shocked when I heard these things from her as her's is a very conservative family and she was under the control of her friend "Sucharitha". Yeah, I meant it. She was the under control of her friend and for every single thing she used to be dependent on her. The only question that' arose in my mind is " Can u convince your friend?". And sushma was like " Yeah, easily!. Afterall, She is my best friend who would hear my opinion. " And after such heaviest words I accepted her proposal. And finally I was in love for "fully fledged". We used to hang out periodically as of her family restrictions and there was no telugu movie which passed by without our presence.

On one such day, sushma called me for emergency and she was like " I am trying to reveal the complete thing to my friend." I was seriously shocked by her decision as I knew mentality of her friend. And she just supported me with her words that she will make her agree at any cost and finally she revealed the complete thing to her.

Last phase of my life:-

On the next day, I received a call from sushma and she was like " My friend didn't accepted our relationship and I just want u to wait for me as in 2 years we both gonna settle in our lives and u can ask for me in my home. If my parents were OK with u then there will be no issues from my friend's side.

And, I thought it as a good sign to be in her relationship and wait for her. Finally, the only things which gave me her presence were "books and poetry". I used to write poems thinking of her and used to cry out of my lungs. But I never texted or called her by keeping my word.

As days are passing by, I used to think about her and on such one day received a call from her that " Because of you, my name got popularized among our class mates that we both were in a relationship!". I said " whats the matter of feeling sad in that? As we were gonna marry at any cost with in 2 years, the so called rumour will be true after that." She was like " No I just dont need my name to be publisized outside and you are the only reason behind it." I was like " Sushma, firstly I just shared my pain with only 3 people. they are kruyhi,sowmmya and padmini. Even they wont share with anyone as they were my trusted bestiees." She was like " No! u were the reason behind this game." Finally I lost my patience and " Sushma, I just love my mother to the core. I am saying these words by keeping promise on my mom that me or my 3 friends never reveal anything bad about u. Just trust me dear." **** BEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPP*********

Suddenly when these things are happening, I got strucked up with an idea of suggesting their parents to take care about sushma about her friend's blackmail but not about our relationship. And told her about my suggestion. Again ********BBBBBEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPP****** continued on my mobile.

I am still waiting for her message. To my sudden surprise, through different sources i came to know that she revealed everything about our relationship and her mom cried her lungs out as her daughter was trapped by a male. And sushma promised her mom that " I wont be in such activities from now and will follow your word. " And her mom made her changing of mobile numbers and deleting of whatsapp account. Finally, I lost her due to the involvement of 3rd person in my relationship.

Ending of my life:-

Finally, again I was remained only with the idea of ending my life and this time I decided to make it possible at any cost. And on one such day I hanged myselves in my room with a suicide note stating all these points and problems.

Editor's note:- This is my friend's story and this was the matter he posted to me on whatsapp before committing suicide. I think the only foolish thing he took up in his life is ending his life because of a girl. But she is happy with her chores and in her world and we lost him. The only suggestion I would give everyone is " Just dont mislead your lives for girls/boys who u love the most. Just think about ur parents and friends. Now, my friend's father was completely sticked to the bed and his mother was completely in her son's memories and weeping and weeping and weeping all her life!". Thank u for reading my friend's life. Valuable comments are encouraged. :)