The doubt

The world reckons those who have the audacity to follow their hearts.

I am a class 11th student and have gone for the arts stream . I dreamt that “one day” I would be the best seller and my books would be in every bookstore of the world. I dreamt to bring around those emotions I wanted my readers to feel the way I wanted them to , to make them cry, laugh , happy , sad for this was my dream I aspire to be not just a writer, but an awful aspiring one.

Well, these were my thoughts when I entered in to my 11 th standard , full of enthusiasm, energy that I can do it. Then the folding of three months wearied a part of it( I can say that). I laid in dumps , figuring out whether I would make a go of it, whether I would stand in this competitive world that demands more than you had thought about.

And then , a doubt lingers over my head or rather I should say “a self doubt”.

But it vanished as soon as it was conceived by my brain. I was cycling in the evening when I came on an unmetallic road replete with all pebbles making my ride a bit shaky and uncomfortable. Then a thought popped out, “ Is it because of the fear of being unable to over come this bumpiness that human beings bear a self doubt in the bottom of their heart.”

The ride of the bumpy road was not easy but it was not difficult either. So why fear and doubt when I can make it out despite all odds.

Narayan Murthy gave up his cushy job for the venture of Infosys. He might have been pinned by doubts of failure, bankruptcy and what not. And he would have had hiccups in his dream to be realized but they didn’t last for there stood a person who fanned his belief over his doubt.

He gave me answers to my questions . Uncertainties is the other name of life. Living in those uncertainities is far better than that one that lacks the punch to follow your heart.

Doubt once made me shaky, wobbly and I had to invigorate myself and thus everyone has to . And my dear readers (if any) if you can dream it thousands of time , you can do it without any doubt of mine.

Here is a verse I wrote for my first story( check on launchora.com) that vanishes my doubt.

Let my journey be bold

Let my actions shall behold

Darkness would shift to other side

As enlightenment would be my pride