emesis

I don't have a particular reason for writing today except for the fact that I want to make this a habit. I've not been very consistent but I'm trying, and that counts for something, right?

I need to get my thoughts in order, out of this viscous, amorphous state that they're in- and I need them to be concrete, delineated, lend them some clarity- because even though everything in my life feels like a mess at the moment, I need to know what's inside my head with crystal clear certainty. Need to mop up the mess, and set things in their proper places and writing should help me do that in the long run. Not just to feel things and react to them and push them in the back of my head, but to be able to process them and make sound decisions. I'm spiraling and I. Require. Control.