Finding Us

Finding Us

Finding hope,

Within these walls of desperation, echoes resonate.

A sound of fainting melodies, a crescendo of the past.

Chasing after you. Seeing you.

Where would I be without you?

Before I used to write letters about you,  now I write letters to the world.

Nightmares creep in the windows, ecstasy of a dream that would never last.

We lost everything in clarity but found everything in translation.

Here are my feelings, all clear for the world to see.

The bridge. The plane and me. All fall into the horizon.

The world. The curse and you. All rise into the situation.

The curtains draw. The scene plays.

And here I write once again, in the place where it all started. I don’t know if I’m writing a beginning or an ending. Maybe both. Both are just different sides of the same coin, after all.

Yesterday I shouted until my voice grew coarse. It felt like I was falling under, and yet after a while, I smiled. All the memories rush into me once again. They overwhelmed me completely. I was happy about everything and yet the pain knows that I need it more.

The happiness then started to fade away. The walls start closing in, and they close in so easily. My ears started ringing, my body started to feel numb.

Here it comes. The Wave. The Storm. The Void. Everything falls apart. I stand alone. I let it consume me. I let it be done.

But you ran. You saved yourself. And you smiled. Its what you wanted, and to be honest, its what I have wanted. But how long will it take before all your sins catch up to you, just like they did with me? How long will it take before the same wrath that runs in my veins start to run in yours too?

We wake. In two different beds in two different universes. There is no place for me nor for you. I found me. You found you. We walk out into the world. Living separate lives. Strangers once again.

No good love story ends with a good ending.

:Yeah I'm back. Its been like what? 4 months or so? Well, yeah it happens, and I can't really say no to writing here again. Its my home. Hope you guys are good! From what I could see, this place is blowing up. More and more new people have come along and that's always fun. A tip for new people: Don't stop writing. Take a break once in a while but don't ever--for the love of yourself and everything that is beautiful and mighty--ever stop writing. Write for yourself, it makes it easier. 

Also, I've been writing some psychology stuff at Medium. If you're interested in Psychology, go on ahead read a couple of articles there. It's new but I will be publishing more. What I will be writing here in Launchora is more of the intimate stuff, the feelings, and life in general. Did I ever say I love this place?

Don't expect me to write more stories though, because I am reserving that for my book. It's coming out soon, alongside my website. So stay tuned for that one. You'll see me here at least once or twice a week, if work is light then you'll see me more. 

Anyways, don't forget that life is a journey worth travelling. There will always be obstacles along the way--wait, you already know this don't you? What I'm trying to say is that continue on living and writing, and falling in love, because they all go together. Cheers!