A strange Force deep inside lifts me through the wind and trees. Leafy boughs scrape my cheek as I plummet through them…something…a branch…scrapes my arm as my body that doesn’t quite belong to me gathers momentum. Azure blue lake…sea…ocean, glistens below me. Shades of blue white wetness…undulating liquid. I’m dead I think, even as I breathe in the moisture inches from my face. I'm dead...it won’t hurt.
Pain sears through my pores as I plunge into inky blackness…cold, wet, silent world. I can’t open my mouth to scream…I scream inside my head. Screams bouncing off dark shapes and shadows writhing beneath me…ricocheting…caressing my flailing limbs. I’m alive. I see…I breathe in this alien wet world.
Excitement washing over me slowly…like the velvet soft cold wetness…silent lonely cocoon. I can live here…my body obeys me as I explore. I am safe.
Dangerous blood soaked eyes…malicious breath…snapping teeth filled jaws. I struggle against the watery tide. Pulling me back…struggle…fight…struggle. I can do this. I swam through trees…floated on air…traveled on sky. I can do this. Limbs forward…kick…kick…have…to…get…away. Want…to…live. A speck of light above. I claw upwards. Teeth-filled-jaws grabs my ankle. Desperation. I can do this. Light rips my eyes. I look behind…crazed fury. Receding shadow. Defeat.
Triumph… surging through the clouds. Sun in my breath. My body does what it’s told. Left…right…up…down…faster…slower. I’m alive!
Dying moans…I look beneath the clouds. Tall trees…taller walking beasts. Jurrassic? But I’m young. Can’t be. Jurrassic. My eyes catch its gaze…face to face. Have…to…fly…higher. Can’t. Heavy water soaked limbs and hair. Try. Come on…must live. Must fly.
Falling fast. Mocking clouds… stabbing thorns. Adrenalin…fear… I will be seen. Must fly higher than the trees. Falling. Echoing earth. Pounding hooves…crazed for the kill screams. I rest in a tree…give in? Ripped apart, eaten…quick death? My heart…erratic pain. Desperate leap. Sounds grow faint…trees grow small. Clouds mist me. Heart slows down.
Hello. We look deep…long. Friendly eyes. Leafy chewing mouth. Small smile on Jurrassic face. Hairless skinny long neck…poking through the clouds. Vegan. No meat. I’m safe.
Did you like my world? I won’t hurt you…they might. No promises. Did you like my world? Goodbye.
But I did like it. A different world. I can live here. Don’t need this body. Don’t need my world. Flying through trees, breathing in seas…carnivores…herbivores. I can live…in my head. So powerful. Dip…soar…float…surge. Roller-coaster butterflies. Powerful.
Floating on lonely misty cotton…isolation…silence. Peace.
Flickering reality. Please let me stay. Fighting the weight on my eyes. Leave me my existential dignity. Heavy heavy eye-lids…flickering reality. Want…to…go…back. Failed negotiation.
I’m here now. Marble floor. Lumpy expensive futon. Sheets…cushions…duvet. I’m here now.
Wet. My pillow…face…my hair…wet. So then the ocean…?
The ocean was real.