Before you say you made me whole
then why I keep on searching for my pieces until now?
before you boast that you love me
Why do ask myself since when?
and before you claim that you hold my heart
why do I feel like there's something wrong?
So I pause
and remind myself that it's enough
to believe that your flame has lived in me
but all I felt was smoke.
I think it's enough.
To say lies just to make me feel better.
I knew it ever since that
when you said you'll stay,
It only means for now.
That when you say you love me
you mean for a moment.
and I remember our moment that sunny morning
when you've said you'll return before the sun goes down
And then I wait with eyes open
And cried because my shadow
started to appear.
And so I realized that I've been lost for a long time.
Seeking for you instead of myself.
'been addicted to ecstasy of love I thought it was.
'been swimming in a shallow water
not knowing it'll drown me to death.
'been climbing the highest trees
and the desire has made me climb
higher
and higher
not even thinking how to get down.
'been waiting for the rain not to get wet
but to be with me
so I am not the only one
crashing on the ground.
My heart was young
and I want to discover
things that'll make it grow.
and accidentally found you
and accidentally flatters me
and you accidentally pushed me to get into your universe.
I float
I dive
I flew
and it feels like heaven
to be with someone
who no longer hold this universe
but became the universe itself for me
but its getting worse
I could no longer breathe my air
and in all accident,
there is an exemption.
It is the pain I felt.
I deserve this pain.
Because I chose to love.
I know when to stop
And I did it already.
It hurts but I know It'll get worst
if we continue this lies
I don't want to remain broken
And you won't even notice that I'm already gone
Right before you say Goodbye.
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