My 2017 was very new to me. It was not the same on those previous years. This year, I've learned more about myself and discovered something extraordinary. Since I'm turning 18 this January 1, maybe it's normal to realize some things in my life when you're a young adult, right? So for me, I think I'm beginning to grow as a person and as an individual being who wants to prove myself that I can be better.
Things have been different lately, like transferring school for the senior year and making some new friends. It was a little bit hard to cope up with the environment especially when there's too many new faces in the crowd. But luckily, I happened to drag my friend with me so we could be together again. As a new student, I observed a lot of differences to these people I don't know and to my classmates in junior year. My classmates before are more like sophisticated, disciplined, and intelligent people(this is really true since we belong in an advanced class XD) whereas these new people were loud and very very outgoing. I don't know if these two terms are just the same. So yeah, I feel a little bit out of place and I think I'll still be the same as always, a wallflower.
I believe that some things will really come to us at the right time and at the right place. And so in this year, I've seen myself who truly I am, as clear as a glinting water. I am a writer at heart, a director, a camera girl, a video editor, and a guide. This happened because of those activities that were given to us. It was mainly all about making dramas, short videos, jazz chants, and etc. I didn't plan to be the role model or the leader in making these things but I think I was destined to do this and prove to them and to myself that I can do better. Maybe this time, is the time for me to move forward and to enhance my skills that will make my life better.
So along the way in discovering myself, I also made a lot of friends because of my personality as a friendly guide. I always make sure to tell them what is needed to do in a specific scene or in an activity. I'm always patient when they are still learning in some ways to help them improve and discover themselves too, just like what I'm doing to myself. I really thought that these people are hard to get or hard to know but it turns out, they're kind and also friendly. They always rely on me every time they find it difficult to figure things out. I'm thankful for them because they believe in me and they give me inspiration to always finish what I've started.
So if there's positive, there's always a negative. The negative part is, my friendship problem. I'd written about this, it was entitled "Erased". I never really thought that she's the type of a person who easily lets go. Maybe in these 4 years together is still not enough. I still don't know her. But nah, I'll let her do what she wants to in her life and just be a good friend.
If there's anything that I need to say "hallelujah!", it's the blessing I've received from God, which is the gift of wisdom. With this wisdom, I learned to figure things out on my own and to let go on those things that hurt me. I'm bringing this wisdom with me 'til the day that I die. And when I do, I'll look back on my past and just smile that it happened. Tomorrow, I'll be good as new! Happy New Year to all!!