The feeling of a broken radio a flat tires a shit on your shoe a bubble gum on your hair tells what I felt when that person disregarded me in his life and it was my little turtle.
I was there when things are outhand. I was there to laugh with him. I was there to support him. I was there to listen him. I was there to comfort him. I was there every hours we spent each day talking. Every day until dawn. I knew his pain. His happiness. His sadness. His anger. His self.
I could write a thousand words to describe him. But he couldn't tell only these 3 words.....
I
Know
You
...
The problem was, he failed to recognized me not the fact that he disregarded me but in the fact that he does not know me...
He was blind. Not his eyes but his heart was. He was overwhelmed to my prize for him in that race. I couldn't blame. I was trapped . I was caged in this predicament. I couldn't hate but was helpless in my thoughts and actions. A complete definition of being dumb. I wish I could regret but was not. I was guilty.
Hatreds and Regrets... A merely pains I wanted to acquire. But an enormous reason to my defenses. It's because of what I felt and I did not like them. Life is pretty ironic. That's explain why people have gotten insane. Life was too hard to comprehend. Even for him too. That decisions to leave me. I understand.
But now I'm in the brink of my insanity. When I hold too much on my vanity.
So I bid you goodbye.