Hey, there were times I was confused about my feelings for you. You're not even the first guy I get to close with, but you have this thing that makes me want to call you "special". Probably, I thought, it's because you're the first guy to whom I share my problems and thoughts with. You're the person who knows my ups and downs, my likes, my distress, my everything. You're my best friend.
Hey, I know you noticed it too. The way I talk and care for you. Oh no! I'm crazy. And before it gets into my head, I shut it down. I did try to brush it off for two damn reasons. One, it's because I thought I'm just doing what a best friend should always do. And two, of course, it is because it's crazy. I shouldn't have this feelings for you. Believe me, I really did try.
Hey, I'm aware. I'm too aware that I'm not just you're best friend, I mean your girl best friend. Because of your sweet, thoughtful and vibrant personality, you have a bunch of what you called "best friends". I'm not the only one. I'm sure I made it clear to myself about that but hey, why I am acting like a piece of crap? I'm pissed when you talk to them. And I should have told you how stupid you are when you chose to be "best friends" with your first love, the one you can't forget. For crying out loud, how could you? How could you be this stupid as me?
Hey, I'm sorry. I think that's the only thing I could say to you. I'm sorry if this feeling is already deep-rooted in my heart. I have no plans of telling you about this, because I just can't... I can't lose you. I know my absence will not somehow bother you because I know there's lots of us you treat as best friends. Hey, i hope you're not sad, well, a part of me wants you to be sad, but I just hope you didn't mind if I keep my distance. Though, I'm not sure about that, because the moment you'll told me what I really want to hear I make sure to run the gap between us. If you call out for me, I'll be there.
Hey, I want you to know that just because I let go, doesn't mean I wanted to. No. I'll just make this right. I will make it right because the only thing that will kill this deep-rooted feeling in my heart is to not continue to water it and let it die. I want you to know that it will pain me big time but if it's for you I will endure everything in the process.
Hey, I love you.