I am a rainbow you can't see

I am a Rainbow you cant see,
I am the happiness you cant feel,
You've blocked me out of your life,
It feels like you've stabbed me with a hundred knives.

All I did was look out for you,
Isnt that what all elder sisters do?
I know you cant see the big picture now,
I only saved you, but you dont see how.

How I lost a part of me, when I lost you,
Now I feel, I should've let you go,
Made our own mistakes, you would have grown,
Now I regret the hatred in you I have sown.

I dint want to see you in pain,
How do I tell you my dear, Ive been through the same game,
I miss you and thats all you should know,
I know you wont let me go.

My love, life is not a cakewalk,
All people do behind your back is talk,
I want you to know, ill fight each one for you,
Just for once walk in my shoe,

He was a cheat, you deserve more,
But why would you listen to me, I am just a bore,
People come and go in your life all the time,
I dont think for those you have to whine,

You wont see me ever again if you wish,
Just for this once, give me a goodbye kiss,
And no matter what you say,
Ill never stop caring for you in any way,

No matter how far you'll push me or how far Ill be,
Ill be right in front of you, whenever you need me,
I grew up taking all the brunts for you, while you would sob,
What makes you think that after all these years I would stop,

I dont know when would you read this,
It might be too late then and I wouldnt be in your way,
I would be in a world far away,
But I wont stop caring for you in any way.

All I want to say is I Love you, sweetheart,
And I am the proudest sister in the world,
And I wish you feel the same,
And I know you feel the same.

          -For the dearest Sister in the world. I never noticed how the time flew and we grew up. I admit I have not been the best elder sister you deserve, but you've loved my flaws in a way which no one else would. You've given me strength and love. And I hope you forgive me for all the mistakes I have committed as we grew up. I love you.