At this early 5 AM morning when I woke up.
I cook, and drink a coffee like I am ready for my day.
Go to school without eating my breakfast, even though I was the one who cooked it.
Then when I was on school I am interacting with my friends.
I am not really serious when it comes in studying but I am studying in a simple or chilling way.
I am more focusing on my 2nd family, my organization.
I was a leader of it,
I play, I teach, and I do my job as I am. They know me, but not as well. They know me of being serious, they know that I am happy, know that I am at better. And yes, they saw it in me. That was all they know. They know I am brave,
but they didn't know how much tired and unhappy I am. They didn't know why am I always at my serious mood. They think I am better, but they didn't know how difficult I do my job. All they know is that I am brave, but they never notice how much sadness I feel, they never know how much I put my patience high and how much I put my pride at the lowest as I can and do those jobs that they must be the one who do it. They never notice me of how much down I am. And I always told them that I will never leave them, they'll leave me rather than I. And I always find a way to see them and make sure if they're doing their job fine or maybe they'll just wait for me to do it myself. And every time I go home, I just simply lay my body in my bed. And tell my self "go rest now bro, you're so tired" but I never told them that I am tired because I just wanted them to notice me that I am. Tired.