I can't stop loving her

When my lost mind find her photo in old dumped locked gallery of my phone, will i tell it with tears that she was the one whom I thaught as precious soul, who was an angel, "who planted whole lot of flowers in a desert of my heart", but could not stay with her due to the monsters of my past mindset and addiction of my loneliness.?

Will I remember that she was a drug which no rehab could fix, but sadly monster of my own mind won over me and forced me to leave her in the middle of ocean before reaching the seashore, confusing that am the destruction to her path?????
Will I remember that,
May be my negative shits made my crazy mind to fill with ficcullness and self doubts on my own worth.
May be its our fate. We both loved each other very truely but couldn't stay together due to the game of fate.

Will I  tell myself  that her hand was the one I holded closely, who was my everything, who was my worst distraction, to whom I promised to stay forever but couldn't keep my words.

I CAN NEVER REMEMBER  THOSE THINGS, BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER FORGOTTEN IT To REMEMBER AGAIN.

Still I am in love with her,
"Because, may be I was just made to love her"
"I just love her and couldn't stop, because all of me loves all of her, I feel high even without drugs.
The time she came to my life was like - it had been so long time being happy - the day was just too special - overdosed with happiness.

..........some people are together but does not  love, some people does love but are not together..........