I got to love you

Hey.  Do you still remember the first time that we met?  It's still vivid in my memories.  I don't like you honestly,  u got that arrogant aura which I really hate, especially when u bumped me on the hallway but u just walked away like nothin happened,  I dropped my stuffs tho and damaged my fav pencil, I want to punched u that time or throw my books but I didn't.  I  swallowed all my anger.  Whenever I saw you at the library,  giggling and foolin around with your friends,  I find it annoying and distracting.  You caught me glarin at u but u just gave me a  wide smile.

Hey.  Do you still remember the day that the rain poured unexpectedly,  unfortunately I didn't bring my umbrella.  I was ready to leave without concernin the heavy rain when u suddenly grabbed my elbow. Without glancin at me u gave urs.  Then u run while waving ur right hand.  

Hey.  Do u still remember when someone tried to molest me while I'm walkin my way home on the street?  I didn't expect someone to save me that time,  but u came like a hero,  a knight in shining armor.  My protector.  U escorted me til I got home.  U never said a word,  but I found it comforting.  

Hey.  Do u still remember the night when no one asks me to dance at the prom? It doesn't matter to me anyway cos I don't like to interact.  U suddenly spread ur hand in front of me.  I grabbed it with no hesistation.  We danced as the mellow music continued to played.  U told me a magic words.  For a minute,  like a fairytale,  i felt like I am one of those princesses. 

"You're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen" 

Hey.  Do u still remember when u send me a message on twitter? Askin me on a date.  I laughed it off cos I know u are just foolin around.  We just met a week ago,  we are not that close yet and we barely know each other.  But my reasons shattered when u surprised me while my classed is still goin on.  U excused urself then sung the song "fallin for you" while strumming ur guitar.  Like the song, it strucked me so hard.  I fall for you.  

Hey.  Do u still remember our first date? At the cabin.  It was the most romantic thing I've ever experienced.  The candle light,  the sweet scents of rose,  the fireworks after we eat and our first kiss.  My first.  And it was like,  u brought color to my life and u made it more vibrant.  

Hey.  Do u still remember every moment we shared? Reading books together at the library,  walkin on the street while holdin each otha hand,  cuddling on the couch while watchin our fav horror movie,  when u are makin a funny face if I had my PMS,  ur surprises in our every monthsary and anniversary. Our fights over little things.  When u got mad and jelous over my cousin. We almost broke up several times but we never let go the knot which tied us .  We promised each other that we were still together till the end.  

Hey.  Do u still remember the day when u woke up and then everythin changed.  U said it's better to let go than keep hurtin while holdin on.  I begged u not to leave me.  U cried while begging me too.  Half of me almost died. Everythin that we promised to each otha ruined.  I was devastated.  I thought we are the definition of forever.  I did not do anythin,  even if I want,  I really want to fight for our love that will never fade,  I know u're already tired.  U want me to be happy,  to be a better and strong person , u want me to let go so that I'll have this chance to look for my right one.  But hey,  the moment that our eyes met,  u are the only one for me.  Of course I'll choose to stay with u no matter what happen, but why did u gave up? 

"Be happy.  Sooner u'll find someone that will love u for eternity.  Sorry,  cos I am not the one.  But see, even though I can't no longer take another chapter of ur story,  I'm glad that I became part of ur life.  I love you" 

Hey.  Do u still remember the first day that we met?  Cos I remember now.  It was christmas eve,  u are the first person that gave me a gift.  Of course I already forgot it,  we are just a kid back then.  U are my first friend,  my first companion which lead to my first heartache when u transferred school.  

Hey.  I am happy now.  I finally learned how to let go.  I hope u're happy wherever u are. Right now I'll giving back to u my fav pencil.  Ur gift, like letting go my addiction for a long time.  If I have given a chance to be with u again,  even though u are just lying on the hospital bed,  even if u can't move.  I'll still stay wiith u.  That's because I got to love u and I still love you. 

-H. V