I'm unsure of this world. I'm afraid of everything. I never became the person who became calm over something but there is one thing for sure, I probably worry about everything.
Life for me is a mess.
Every day for me is a battle that I need to face.
Every person for me is a friend for a while but I know that they will leave me in the future.
That's why I worry so much.
I am that person who thinks that in everyone, everything, and every place, I will never be enough.
I thought that no one will come until I have you. You said you love my personality but lately, I can see that you are annoyed and irritated by me and that is killing me. I don't know how to apologize or to tell you this but I hope you can read this as soon as I post this.
I'm very sorry for the texts that may annoy you because I thought I am losing you. I'm sorry for asking you every hour if you are okay because I thought that I am not providing you comfort. I'm very sorry about cooking too much at home because I thought that I need to make you healthy. I'm very sorry about the fight we had and I can't explain what really happened because I thought that I might say something that I will regret after. I'm really sorry for being an annoying person. I'm really sorry for being a terrible partner.
If only I will be honest with you, I will tell you that I am worried about everything. I am worried about us. I am worried about losing you. That's why I am like this.
My anxiety is probably a part of me now. To be honest, I want to remove it immediately but I can't...because this became me. I'm very sorry for being like this.
If I couldn't win this battle, will you still accept and love me?
I really need to know.