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I have never had a childhood
I have never had an adulthood
All i found was sexual abuse
All i found was hate and revenge
All i found was games and lies
I had nothing but scars and breakdowns
All i wanted in life was a home
I started meeting people
and They just offered homes that looked like ones in fairytails
Later on i realized they were hell inside but that was after i was trapped
I always thought i will find true love
But all i found was hate and lies
So i locked my heart
Then he came along
He just appeared
And all what happened was that the sealed lock was broken
Broken by his mere existence
He was a brother and a best friend
I gave him a chance and let him in
I gave him a chance to save me
By time, my heart started to give me shivers
His smile and his voice did miracles
All i knew is that i fell so hard for someone who will never be able to return my love
I had this tiny hope that we might live together forever
I can't ever live without him anymore
But, i became a source of misery to him
I can't control it
I can't control that i always see myself as a burden
I can't control that i hate myself
All of these had sources that started with the family
I was told that i was nothing
I was told that nobody loves me
I was told that i was sexy enough to the extent of wanting to rape me
I was too young
Too young to understand that what was said wasn't me at all
But as i grew up, i heard such hurtful words alot:
"Nobody loves you, nobody cares, you are too beautiful so what about you suck my dick"
When i was younger, i was threatened to masturbate a man
I was threatened to supply money and be a thief
I was threatened to show my body
I was threatened to do more and more
These killed my soul
I want you to know that i have seen a lot and i am not under control on my words when i am so hurt, when i am so broken and dead inside
Forgive my heart
Forgive my soul
Forgive how much i loved you
Forgive how much you mean to me
I never meant any harm but i do hurt people badly
All what's inside my hollow empty vessel is shit
It's a first for me to learn about the good
I hoped you would feel me more
I wished you would love me more and never let go
I wished you would take me away from my dead soul and save me
I had alot of wishes but i think it's too late
You will never love me again
Forgive me,
I loved you.
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Updated on July 20, 2018
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