(This is a true story of the author. I hope you like it)
I am a girl. Yes, I know that. I should be wearing a dress or a cute headband on my head. But sadly, I wear the complete opposite wardrobe of my gender. I prefer polo, shorts plus I also put a gel so my hair will stand out. I don't have short hair. Actually, I have long hair. But that time, I was so desperate to chop my hair off.
It all started when I was a child. Since 3 years old, all of my playmates are boys. Well, I don't have choice so I can say, I somehow became one of them. Yup, I became one of the boys. But actually, I didn't know that I was a lesbian that time.
On my fourth grade, I notice something different is building up in me. That time, puberty is hitting me. I really hate it because I know that I shouldn't be experiencing it. I once dreamed that I should have that magical stick that will only experience pain once in a man's life. But sadly, this blood in me is causing me pain several times. Although puberty is now making a signal that I'm truly a girl, I know that am still a lesbian. In fact, I experience having a crush on a girl that time. She's the campus heartthrob and a math geek. She's really beautiful. I just felt infatuated but I didn't feel in love.
When I'm on my sixth grade, I experienced to have friends just like my gender. I now have girl friends, not girlfriend. But the thing is they are not normal girls. They are bisexuals. I am now wearing girl clothes but my heart is not completely feminine. I tried to court a girl once. She accepted me and we became M.U. (Mutual Understanding). I thought I fell in love but I found out that she is just fun to be with for me. I didn't find her interesting at all. But I can admit that I have a little crush on her.
When I just got in to High School, the environment is so different. I am still a lesbian or should I say a bisexual back then. But as I get to know my classmates better, I find out that gender is a big deal. When there's a boy dating a boy, they will bully them. When there's a girl dating a girl, they will call them "slut." But there is no problem when an opposite gender are dating in school, they will even find it sweet even though they are already showing a hard PDA. With that situation, I tried to hide.
Then, I met my first best friend in school. He is a basketball player and a heartthrob but I'm not into boys so it's just okay for me to be with him. He is the first one to know that I'm a bi and he accepted me as a friend even though a lot of people are looking at us whenever we are together. Although they are not saying anything, I can see the fury in their eyes especially those "clown girls". I call them clown because of the thick make-up that they are wearing. They also have this dragon mouth that can bring people down.
We always bond together after school. We play basketball and online games and we do homework together. We also make fun of our classmates and schoolmates. That makes us so close.
Actually, I didn't find him so attractive at all (at first). Just because I know all the messiest and dirtiest side of him. I also saw the worst side of him so I can't see myself falling in love with him. But little by little, I find his simple features so attractive. His dimple on his left cheek, his pimple that never leaves his forehead and his lips and eyebrows that is more beautiful than mine. I also appreciate his little efforts like buying me a fish ball outside the school and going home with me after school.
The next day, I just can't stop thinking of him. The chips that he gave me, I never eat it yet because I know it came from him. Although it is already expired, I won't mind seeing my closet having ants just because of that. The gel that he gave me, it is his gift because he found out that I'm fond of using it during elementary days. I never open it yet.
So the next next day, I tried changing myself. I tried to learn how to put a natural make-up on my face. I tried wearing skirts and simple dresses with a matching cute flat shoes. And in the day that we met, I know he noticed the changes in me. I also know that he can't stop staring at me. I am not assuming. I can see it.
So months passed by, we are still like that. But in every love story, a man will make a move to the woman he loved. So, he invited me to an amusement park. I wore a girly dress with a floral pattern. When I saw him, he smiled so I smiled too. That's the most beautiful smile that I've ever seen.
We play a lot of games, we ride a thrilling rides but the important thing for me is when I'm with him. We ride a roller coaster ride that is called "Space Shuttle." He told me we should ride that because he has something to tell me. I was convinced for I assumed that something great will happen. Of course, how can I not deny it? When we are already on the peak and we are about to go down, he told me the unexpected thing that I'm secretly expecting from him. I want to react with what he just said but my face suddenly become distorted and I became embarrassed because he is laughing at me. When we finished the ride, I response on what he said. "I love you since before."
I think we really have the weirdest love story in the world. How come a wannabe man like me fell in love with her best friend? I mean it is just magical that the unexpected things that we don't expect to happen have just happened. Now, I am a complete woman. Not a lesbian and not a bisexual. I became a woman because of him. Man, I became a woman because of you.