I'll be waiting for you...

Wanted by many,
Taken by none,
Talking to some,
Just waiting for the "ONE".

Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile &  in your presence feels that life is worthwhile.
So, when you are lonely, remember this is true,
Somewhere I'm here sitting thinking of YOU...

Monday left me shaken,
Tuesday I was through with hoping,
Wednesday my empty thoughts were open,
Thursday waiting for him,waiting for him...
Thank the universe it's Friday,
I'm burning like a fire gone wild on Saturday,
Guess, I won't be going anywhere on Sunday!
I'll be waiting for him to come around....

Aarya ... Aarya ... Aarya..!
I responded to Pooja calling me from back.
Pooja:- The studious girl,one of my favourite pal & library mate! That time,she was unknown of  the fact that pretending to read biochemistry was my tact of passing time in the library.

"Are you interested in listening songs?" She asked
I nodded.
She slipped her one earplug into my Right tragus & played the song.

Songs lead my every situation of life & so this is :-

Baatein kuch ankahee si,
Kuch ansuni si hone lagi
( Some unsaid and unheard things,
Have started to happen. )

Kaabu dil pe raha na,
Hasti hamari khone lagi.
( I have no control over my heart,
I'm losing my identity. )

Woh ... woh o o oWoh ... woh o o o

Shayad yahi hai pyar!(May be this is "love")

PYAAAR???
Seriously what? Naaah! Too big word!!!

It's Yaar_Vaar but definitely not pyaar!
It's better to be *"Sunbae_Hubae"*
rather than Gf_Bf.

Enough of "Aarya Raichand"
Control yourself!
I ordered my mind to stop it!

Ohhh... what the hell is going on with me?
I immediately plugged off her headphones & said "I have already wasted so many hours Pooja so for now I'll have to study."

I pretended to read biochemistry book but actually...
I dreamt of his smile,
I felt his presence beside me,
that made my precious time worthwhile.
I just wanted to express that this is true & somewhere I'm here, waiting for you.....
So,please come fast, come soon "SIR"!

"Atharva Raj Singhania" I can't wait more!

TAK HEEEEE
TAK HEEEEE
(Door opens)

May be...
I hurriedly pushed my face upwards but what an unfortunate girl I'm like seriously..God is also testing my patience! Another senior is there but not him.
"The hardest test in life is to have patience for the right moment."
Disappointed,I merged into my deep thoughts again hoping he would be here after sometime.

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TAK HEEE
(Door sounds)

My face Up/down
               Up/down
               Up

Lafzon Se Jo Tha Pare
Khalipan Ko Jo Bhare
Kuch Toh hai Tere Mere Darmiyaan
Rishte Ko Kya Modh Doon
Naata Yeh Ab Todh Doon
Ya Phir Yunhi Chodh Doon, Darmiyaan!

For every tyrant, a tear for the vulnerable.
For every lost soul,
the bones of a miracle.
For every dreamer, the dreams were unstoppable..
With something to believe in...
That "HE IS HERE"!
Yeah, the guy for whom I waited for hours is here.

My eyes are focused on him, they refused to look here or there. They are fixed at one place.
At him/On him & at every preposition of him.
"A GIRL will usually try her best to save her overwhelmed reaction towards awkward situation at any cost!" But once the limit is crossed, all her reactions start appearing in her sensory organs. And my sensory organs are all gone to "COMA".

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‌Mouth_slightly open
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It's a kind of "Deja_vu"!
Ten hours of waiting,hoping,aching & sitting in the library will going to end soon.
We're like strangers before,who keep on looking at small devices(mobiles)  till it would glow.

But now, the guy of my dreams is here.
Wait...let me prepare first,
‌How will I meet?
As a junior or as a friend?

‌How will I react?
Normal or Mental?

‌For what I'll go?
For asking doubt or just talking?

‌After how many minutes?
10 or 20 ?
What to do?
Random questions raised in my mind.

He greeted his seniors & sat on the back bench of the library. I stole my sight from everyone & was able to catch him where he was.He was not fully visible to me.
Arehhhhhh!
So, I decided to wait for him.
I again waited for some more mins & then I turned, what I saw next started ruining my mind partially! He was clearing doubts of my batchmates one by one but he was not coming to me & he was too far to call!
After that, a couple came & asked him to go out with them & he went which my dark circled eyes had last seen.

I was slowly degrading inside,
I was rushing to go to the hostel,
I wasn't able to tolerate this ignorance.
So, I came back with my friends.

Benaam Rishta Woh
Benaam Rishta Woh, Bechain Karta Jo
Ho Na Sake Jo Bayaan, Darmiyaan
Darmiyaan Darmiyaan Darmiyaan Darmiyaan!

Aankhon Mein Tere Saaye
Chahoon Toh Ho Na Paaye
Yaadon Se Teri Faasla Haye
Jaake Bhi Tu Na Jaaye
Thehra Tu Dil Mein Haye
Hasrat Sa Banke Kyun Bhala
Kyun Yaad Karti Hoon
Mittti Hoon Banti Hoon
Mujhko Toh Laaya Yeh Kahan!!!

I reached my room but didn't want to talk with anyone. I just wanted to look myself somewhere & cry to the fullest.
It's demeaning.
Emotionally : I'm done
Mentally : I'm drained
Spiritually : I feel bad &
Physically : I am trying to smile.

It's like I'm waiting for something after knowing it won't happen!
Certain toxic thoughts are produced in my brain.
Like,maybe he behaved good before due to lack of boundation in his house.
But now we're in college so we should officially behave like "SENIOR_JUNIOR"!
He won't talk with me like that ever again,so I should control my emotions.

Today is one of those days when I wish I was a little girl & could climb into my mumma's lap & cry until the pain goes away but it won't be possible!

I compelled myself & went to the bathroom to wash my face so that I could pretend to be ok.

I promptly heard "Strum & play" ( ringtone of my cellphone). It's been louder & louder with each passing second but I thought due to my mental disturbance I'm hearing that!
Ohh God!! Please save me.

Then I moved around & saw Sona was running towards me & whisperly shouting

Sona :- The roomie who stands through my thick & thin & always manages to pick me up when my thoughts go to bin!

"Aarya...Aarya...Aarya"
Atharva Sir... Atharva Sir... Atharva Sir is calling, pick up, pick up the call..
I answered the call..

"Hello?"
"Hello?"
"Hello?Betu?"
"Haa Sir.
Say.."

"Finally you treated me like a junior?"

"Hainaa!!
& by the way it's alright Sir
Actually you are!
From tomorrow onwards,
Don't call me Betu!
I'm not your Betu here!
Let it be like Atharva Sir & Aarya!
Ok Sir?"
I spoke as much as I wanted without giving him any chance of clarification.

After taking deep breathes
He said,
"Betuu.. Betuu..
Please calm down!"

I shouted in reply,

"What calm down?
You ignored me!"
I sobbed.

Hoth mein chupke dekh rahe the, chaand ke peeche, peeche the.
Saara jahan dekha, dekha na aakhon mein, palkon ke neeche the

"Betu,I observed you!"
You wore pink dress.
I saw you.He said.

"Really?" Shocked I confirmed.
Then why didn't you came?
First stop crying & then I'll answer all your queries! He begged.

Stammerly I said, I'm not crying.
I know you are,that's why I called you immediately after that.
He said.
I know you better Betu He raised his voice softly.

This made my nerves bit shivered.
Okay tell me how i could've come to you? He questioned.
All seniors were there na?
What did you want?
To come to you and ask:

"How are you Betu?
Is everything going well?"
I giggled.
"Betu I won't be able to do that! What other people will think of us?
He adviced.
I understand. I somehow managed to speak.

Are you still angry with me?
He questioned.

No. I answered.

But Sir I waited for you until my heart's out!
It hurts alot!
I said in the flow.

I understand Betu!
You don't worry.
I'll definitely meet you tommorow & clear every doubts.
He said.

Now happy?Betu?
He asked.

Haan Sir.
I replied
Okay, I'll talk to you later.
Bye Betu!
Bye,bye Sir.
We hanged up.

I'm not crazy,weird or abnormal,
I'm just a sensitive person.
But that means I'm a loyal girl who thinks deeply.

After this conversation my teary eyes glittered with delight.
I had dinner but after dinner, that cycle of waiting for his call starts!
So..
What you think?
Would he call???