Dear self, I know you've been wrecked and hurt because of my stupidity but to tell you frankly, I am not sorry.
I won't apologize for shattering your heart.
For bearing the pain of thousand knives stabbing you when a boy left you and played with your feelings. You have been dumb for falling into the arms of someone who is not willing to catch you. But who cares? You've learn how to pick up the pieces anyway.
I won't apologize for the tears you wasted.
Along with the memories and pictures you burned, then poured an endless rain of agony from your eyes. A river of sadness flooded your eyes. But you should not worry. You'll wipe them up eventually.
I won't apologize for the sleepless nights.
As thoughts of what if's and why's flashed in your mind. Memories that taunts you to sleep. And regrets that are starting to eat your soul. But you should not let negativity win. The future prepared a bed for you to rest with no thoughts clouding your mind.
I won't apologize for the wounds.
How painful it might have been and the slow process of healing. Mending in the most hurtful way. Though a scar remained, it will still heal anyway.
Yes, I will not be saying sorry to you. I won't apologize for the mistakes I've done that hurt you and crushed you. Though you may have noticed it or not, you are slowly standing up again. You've learned. And now you're stronger.
I may have broken you down but this is what you must remember. I crushed you so I could rebuild you.
To make you a better "you".