Trusting you is my decision. Proving me right is your choice.
They said that we can only trust people who see three things in us. 1) The sorrow behind our smiles, 2) The love behind our anger and 3)The reason behind our silence. In short, those people who truly know us.
TRUST. It's a big word. Once you break it, it is not easy to heal. Well, that's why we also have trust issues. Trust issues come from being fucked over.
I don't even understand why people break it. It is such a precious word. Why can't people keep the most treasured thing in the world?
Well, I'll explain it to you later but first, I want to share a story with you.
Being a first-year high school, I am now experiencing puberty. Of course, as hormones rise, love also occurs. This is the level of being infatuated and the process of being in love.
Love is not that serious that time. Puppy love. That's the right term. It is immaturely done and there is no guarantee that it will last for so long.
I fell in love with a guy. A handsome, brainy and a kind guy. He's popular but he is not that appealing to girls. They said that he is a snobber and an ignorant, that's why.
I just love him secretly for 1 year. Yes. 1 wonderful year of stalking, asking for signs and asking God to give him to me. #Hopia
It's now a year and I'm about to give up but an unexpected thing has happened. He confessed, he asked me and we became lovers.
Yes. I trusted him with my heart.
Months have passed, we are both happy. We help each other and we do everything to be open to each other.
I trusted him with my secrets.
There are also times that we fight but we solve it quickly. We are trying our best to make our relationship strong and to make it all right.
I trusted him for not breaking my heart.
For many months, we are okay. We argue but we solve it anyway. I never even suspect someone that will break us. I hold our promises every day for I know that it will be forever our oath. I believe that he is the best thing that happened to me and I know that he feels the same way to me.
My man,
I already trusted you with everything. My heart, my secrets, my dreams, and our dreams and most especially, the fact that we will be together forever.
I am carrying these words for so long...
But I didn't expect that in a single glance, all will be gone.
I trusted you for almost everything and I thought you are like that too.
I know everything is alright.
However, I didn't expect things to happen.
I found out that you trusted me with your secrets and your dreams...but you never trusted me your Heart.
You feel uneasy and you thought I will leave you someday so you find another girl whom you thought you can trust more than me.
Trust. It is such a big word.
One wrong person and it will turn out to be a bad decision.
Doubting is also its enemy.
That's why most of us are shattered into pieces because of this.
Going back to the boy, he left me.
For the lovers out there, don't ever doubt if it's not necessary. Please trust more than doubt. You may not know it but it hurts. It really hurts.