Just An Answered Prayer

About two years ago I've seek and strive to find a companion for a mean time. It was when the sun was radiant above happy with her beams embracing the sensitivity of my own skin.  I look up to the sky and prayed "God,  I'm  done of being alone,  please send me a companion even just for a while. " I was unsure if he heard me for I only talk to him when I needed something, or when I am lonely and in pain. Later on that day a man came to me and smiled, and it all started there. With his simple smile I silently thanked God that he answered my prayer very soon. From then,  I no longer have to be alone. That man was always with me.  He makes me laugh everytime I lost a reason to smile. He came to check on me from time-to-time and day-to-day. Every night and day he is the only person I have talked.  Sometimes he was busy but after that he would do everything to catch-up with me.  Some how with his little efforts I felt important, that never in my life someone had made me feel that important not until he came. Because even my own family never spent time with me as much as he did.  All the attentions I've been thirsty of from my own blood was given by a man I prayed from God.

Days had passed and he is still the same,  he always makes me feel that I no longer have to be alone for he will always be there for me no matter what happens.  He even promised me to never ever leave me alone. He sees me as a fragile crystalline that needs to have extra care or else I will broke. Indeed,  he is right. Life has been so cruel for me that he took away my father far from me and never met him since I was just a kid.  Mother was always busy with her works,  and I never had siblings. I was all alone before I prayed for Him. He stands as everything to me, a father and a protective brother I never had. He makes me feel special,  he makes me feel that someone loves, he makes me feel my importance. I was so close of giving up life and end my existences but he gave me reasons,  a reason to stay alive each day,  a reason to breath and a reason to everything.

But the only constant in this world is change, and he does. I feel his coldness he's losing time on me yet I chose to understand him.  Maybe he was busy,  maybe he has a problem,  maybe he just need sometime, maybe he just need a space,  so I gave it to him. It gaves me pain so much as I noticed his changes,  he is no longer the man who would make me laugh,  he became the who cause me tears. I was aching and weeping alone when remembered what I had prayed to God before he came "God,  I'm done being alone please send me companion even just for awhile." Then tears from eyes never stop flowing. Oh I see,  I asked God a companion for awhile not for a life time. I just borrowed him from above. "But God,  you gave him to me so soon I did not know you would also take him away from me very soon? " I used to question God "Whyy?". Then reality hits me,  no one in this life would stay forever by my side.  Everyone leaves after a while,  God just answered my prayer, I asked for a company for a while and then He gave him to me. I might have just forgotten what I had prayed. Fate was never on my side and maybe I wasn't born to be happy with someone, maybe I was intended to live my life alone.