As I'm having quite an emotional night I came to realise what happiness is in life.
My uncle divorced his gold digger wife and she took his children with her. Today was the first time he ever met his little baby boy in two or three years.
He didn't cry or show any emotions other than happiness, maybe because he didn't want us to see him in tears or maybe because his happiness overtook his sadness. I love my uncle he's one of the greatest people I know. He always smiles and try to make everyone around him smile. I say that not because he's family but because I've seen so many people and he's one of the few that puts others above himself. Even though his life hasn't been easy he never told anyone and tried to work out his problems all alone. I respect the man he is. Other than that, I was watching a show about college students in one of the best universities in the world and my dream university. S university. In the show they had a 3 seconds shot where they showed students seing their names on the board showing that they have been accepted at the university and all the shots left a big impression in my heart especially one. In that one there was a boy who putted his head on his mother's head and smiled at her while wiping off her tears as she cried from happiness and behind him was his dad who patted his shoulder. The shot was so quick but I replayed it so many times because I couldn't get enough of it, if I could I would've done a movie out of it. Why? Simply because it showed how hard he worked to get there, it showed how his parents suffered for him to get there, how his dad was proud of him and it showed the appretiation he had for his parents and how thankful he was. I couldn't see his face and how I wish I could, just so I can see his emotions properly. I'm sure he's a great person now, since the video was so old. I want to find that person and just thank him for being who he is or simply for being born. I found that scene fascinating alongside the other amazing similar scenes because I wanted to go to that university but I didn't get the chance due to so many excuses one of them is financial. I am a person who tries to make excuses I know that, that's why I find myself pathetic sometimes. That scene made me cry because I've never worked so hard for anything in my entire life and I wish I would've because that is the beauty of life. I hate the idea that we can't go back in time and that we can't make changes. I believe that a simple change can make my life better, but what do I know? I am a person with no dream no hope and no purpose in life. I am just living because I am alive. But I want to change that. I'm not sure if anyone would complete this rubish I'm writing or if anyone would read it if that matters but if someone did than Thank you.
P.S: I didn't write what happiness meant to me because I wanted everyone to think frealy as he wishes about its meaning.