Let Your Heart Speak

It was cold starry night

I was there, under the moon's light

Trying to gasp what's missing in my life

I placed my hand on my chest

I knew, there was something no less

It felt heavy, seems wanting some rest

I turned to the man lying on my bed

I smiled, thinking where things had led

But my mind said, "End it without a shred"

I'm alive, with just hearing his voice

I want it more than his engine's noise

Heaven knows how hard I made that choice

I'm lost, in his alluring gaze

I tried to flee, but I was stuck in his maze

Who knew, I'll be the one to stop the chase

I'm weak, in his embrace warmer than the sun

I never thought I was able to love a man

Yet fate says still, this should be gone

I'm brave, yes! I was brave

Felt his kiss, even something inside me wants to rave

But I guess not enough for 'us' to save

He open his eyes

He caress my cheeks where my sadness lies

If only he could see this unbreakable ice

I heard him utter words I always fear

I wish I could tell him too in all sheer

Forgive me, I hope you knew you are so dear

For the last time, his warmth engulf my soul

I could feel my tears wanting to fall

So I firmly shut my eyes, afraid to give them up all

"Do you love me?", he asked before I got off the car

What should I have said to save him from scar?

Yet in the end, I chose to watch him from afar

I look straight in his eyes that I'll miss

And took courage, "Let's end this"

Those hateful words to my ears made hiss

I walk away and never look back

Dragging my feet, keeping my track

Now, am I really asking what I lack?

My mind insists, "It's for the best"

Liar! Look, I'm a mess!

I placed my hand on my chest

"I love him"