It was cold starry night
I was there, under the moon's light
Trying to gasp what's missing in my life
I placed my hand on my chest
I knew, there was something no less
It felt heavy, seems wanting some rest
I turned to the man lying on my bed
I smiled, thinking where things had led
But my mind said, "End it without a shred"
I'm alive, with just hearing his voice
I want it more than his engine's noise
Heaven knows how hard I made that choice
I'm lost, in his alluring gaze
I tried to flee, but I was stuck in his maze
Who knew, I'll be the one to stop the chase
I'm weak, in his embrace warmer than the sun
I never thought I was able to love a man
Yet fate says still, this should be gone
I'm brave, yes! I was brave
Felt his kiss, even something inside me wants to rave
But I guess not enough for 'us' to save
He open his eyes
He caress my cheeks where my sadness lies
If only he could see this unbreakable ice
I heard him utter words I always fear
I wish I could tell him too in all sheer
Forgive me, I hope you knew you are so dear
For the last time, his warmth engulf my soul
I could feel my tears wanting to fall
So I firmly shut my eyes, afraid to give them up all
"Do you love me?", he asked before I got off the car
What should I have said to save him from scar?
Yet in the end, I chose to watch him from afar
I look straight in his eyes that I'll miss
And took courage, "Let's end this"
Those hateful words to my ears made hiss
I walk away and never look back
Dragging my feet, keeping my track
Now, am I really asking what I lack?
My mind insists, "It's for the best"
Liar! Look, I'm a mess!
I placed my hand on my chest
"I love him"