You open up yourself to people
Break those four walls you built around yourself for so long
Not because you are desperate
But alone
Trying to figure out the world
Someone talks to you in that new place
For the first time in forever you thought that you could have a friend as well
You talk and feel safe
First time someone came to you themselves
The experienced you tells you to stop
Warns you that it happened before
But the lonely you longs for someone
So you give it a try
Despite the warning, you finally break those walls letting yourself open and free
After ages life gave you something to smile about
Finally gave you a friend
You being your own self gets attached to your new friend within days
They abandon you after their work is done
Is that all you are for?
You start questioning yourself
Despite their wrongs
blame yourself for the loss of the friendship
You believe they deserved better
But in reality you did
Accepting that you deserve nothing but loneliness you remember why you build those walls in the first place
Promise to yourself to never break them down again and build it even higher this time
Life was going on but then...
Someone comes again
And you long for some together time
Repeating the same mistakes again
You decide to break them
But you just built them up
You stop trusting people anymore and take the blame on yourself
You don’t let the right person in
Stay in your own world where you are only a play thing
But indeed deserve better
Do you understand it?
No!!!
Loneliness becomes a part of your life and you accept it