Lost

I am pretty confused...!!

I have lost myself completely and I don't even know what I am doing with my life right now

I've lost control over myself it's not me who is moving my life  ahead anymore

I am trying to fight a battle and I don't even know what I am really fighting for

Something is there

Something that bothers me that is hurting me inside

But I can't really get to it

Something from within is trying to stop me from going but there is another force that keeps dragging me far into the dark

Will I be alright again ?

I don't know

Everything seems so pointless and meaningless

My life it's like....

A 3 year old kid is given a pen and paper and asked to draw beautifully and it starts to draw some thing we never understand but we do appreciate but that drawing has no meaning it's useless and it can be crumbled up and thrown away later

That piece of paper that is my life.