Chapter One: The Stepping stone
I was too young to fall in love, but I don't know where did I get the thought of love from, maybe bollywood movies or maybe hormones.
I was 12 years old (6th STD)., Me and my family had shifted to a village in Ratnagiri 2 years ago. I had made few good friends, and was trying to cope up with this environment. I had lot of female friends those days, unlike now.. Haha. But my first crush was my benchmate, In a hurry to express my feelings, I wrote those on a diary which got caught, And I got beaten up by my class teacher. I crushed my crush and moved on.
But hello, I was a boy in my teenage, feeling of love was tempting. I got crush on another girl Ananya. She was pretty and always full of enthusiasm. I always wanted to be friend with her so I started trying to be around her, Her friends became my friends and I introduced myself in her life as a good intelligent boy, yes I was good at studies. Only problem was that she was in Division B (class with lower grades) while I was in Div A (see I was a scholar). So I purposely scored less in exams by attempting less questions. Now I was worried that If I didn't even get passing marks then.. Or What if she scores good marks and come to Div A. I didn't think that much before exams. But luckily, I scored quite good marks to be called a scholar with less marks. First time I thanked god for not scoring high, I was finally in Div B with my crush. I started increasing my conversations with her.
It was during my 7th Std. first semester exams, My father passed away in a road accident. It was a very bad period. Me and my mom shifted to the city of mangoes, Ratnagiri. As my school was closer from there.
I kept consistency in my marks to stay in Div B, thankfully she did it too. Now I was happy to be with her but upset to lose my papa. My happiness couldn't grow because my mom joined my school as a pre-primary teacher. Now I couldn't do something that goes noticeable to teachers, otherwise my matter reaches home along with me forever. We just stayed good friends and couldn't express our feelings. In an attempt to woo my crush, I did lot extra curricular activities, so I was famous. Half of the school already knew about us liking each other. But we never told it and didn't act that we know it. 2 years passed, but nothing much happened. In 10th std. she shifted to Mumbai along with her family. My dreams about my crush were crushed again. I didn't know what to do. I destroyed my academic record for her and she just left, I came out of love closet and became practical and noticed that even teachers were not positive about my academic progress. I boosted my studies and scored 84% which is less as compared to scholars but too much for Div B kid.
I didn't stop looking for her. I got her mobile number from a mutual friend and started chatting with her. She missed me a lot and so did I. I didn't waste time and proposed her over an sms, I know its not too romantic but this is how it happened. And her answer was affirmative. Now unknowingly my academic score of 11th std. was also destroyed. But somehow due to my boring behaviour of those days(unlike now), she left me. I became more focused now but 12th is not as easy as 10th. Organic and inorganic chemistry with Complex physics and maths had made sure that I continue my consistency of lower grades in exams. I couldn't tolerate my inability to score good marks. Don't worry I didn't attempt suicide, I attempted 12th exam twice again, in one year, which is equivalent to suicide. With an enormous increase in score of 3%, my will for improvement was satisfied. But in that one year, I found a girl who stood by me in my bad times. What happened in that one year? What happened next? Why is this chapter named stepping stone? Why I don't have too many female friends like before? Why did I mention myself boring in my relationship?
Everything you will know in my next chapter, More exciting, interesting and love-filled.