~ ME....

once upon a time that's how every story begins yeah that's right ...
but ...i wish that time if i could have close my eyes forever ...
every  person hides something ...and behind my smile and naughtiness 
there was a big ..big dark side hidden 
that I... was afraid to show because i didn't wanted to?

WHY 
simply because its painful 
when i was small ...i was just like all other kids around me 
AND lived a happily childhood somehow ....things started to change 
the person whom i loved most 
the person whom i admired 
my DAD my life  ....AND FOR my mom he was everything
but he cheated her 
slowly lovely family begun to broke ... cries ,,,noise 
everyone was so busy ...and for me ..everything stopped for a MINUTE ...
i found myself to lost !
I WAS STILL SO SMALL TO UNDERSTAND WHATS GOING ON 
and when i found out it felt like someone stolen my ground beneath my feet
i cried and cried endured hardship my own dad who used to love me 
started behaving with me like animals ...beating .......not giving money for school and other chores ..
mom...she became like a person without a soul....but i made her secured ...don't worry mummy i will be your shield 
i will give you all the love that dad couldn't...
but still now i am 16 and now still i am enduring .....i don't know how my future will be but its too difficult to find the door
when i am surrounded by the darkness..
even though he is harsh i don't know why i still love my dad 
but i don't see the love home back 
i forgot how to cry properly 
its like all the vain inside my heart is overflowing 
telling me to stop ...just stop 
i shout in my mind ...sometimes ....tooo tooo lost 
but then i felt what if i ever fall in love will my life like her ...
but i waited for someone who could understand me upon whom i can lay my head on ...
but seems like i am cursed by love .....i don't know how it will end .
BUT I KNOW I WILL BE THE ONE TO END IT .......~SO HAPPY EVER AFTER ENDING ......THIS IS HOW MY STORY OF LIFE WILL GONNA BE ....