I lie awake at night,
Thinking what I should have done,
Contemplating on what I should do,
"I want my life to end now".
I look over my arm,
And all I see are my scars,
If I do it one more time,
"Will everything stop hurting now?"
I stare at the ceiling,
And darkness was all I have,
If I close my eyes shut,
"Will there be any light to help me out?"
I stumbled out of bed,
Faced the mirror and saw myself,
If I change how I look,
"Will what I feel change as well?"
I went back to bed as fast as I could,
I turned around to see darkness follows,
My shadow, I think I'm scared of it,
"Is that all I have to be with me?"
I cried and cried some more,
Covered myself totally using the blanket,
I wonder if I hide here,
"Will I be invisible from all of this?"
I stayed up all night thinking,
How do I escape this?
The monster inside me is waking,
How can I beat it when I'm so hurting.
Help! Help!
But there's no sound in my scream!
Help! Help!
Free me from all this!
Help! Help!
But no one came to see me!
Help! Help!
Me is killing me.