I loved you, yes I did. Too much that I forgot how to love myself too. People say you are good and yes I can attest you are as a person, a son, brother and as a friend only you failed as a partner but I can’t blame you for that, I would never do. Nobody’s perfect and neither you. I had the best moments of my life in those years I spent with you so I can’t find any room for hatred, if only you did love me right.
One day you will look back and remember those times when I used to care for you more than any other woman can. I like doing things for you. Without expecting anything in return, I love making you happy. I will not call myself stupid because it is something I can be proud of. I could spend a day doing nothing; just talking to you, I wouldn’t mind doing the things that you like regardless if it’s none of my interest. I had lived my life around your circle and that was the best feeling I would risk going over again in this life just to feel.
I had pains, I had words kept unspoken, I had many sleepless nights, I had those times when you shattered me into pieces and I had to fix myself on my own when I want you to do it for me. I learned how to be tough, stronger than I ever thought I can. While you, you have those apologies that I’ve been wanting for so long but your ego deprived it from me and so I trained myself to forgive without being apologized for. As much as being angry, I can only feel pity. For I know time will come that you will see my worth, you’ll miss me but there’s nothing left I can do for you. These are not words of resentment, only pure truth because I speak from my mind. Long before you will realize, I had found my value on someone else life because you are too busy loving yourself too much
I just want you to know that I didn’t fall out and love never left me. I just hope with you too. Self-worth just knocked on my door when I had closed all the windows for my happiness because of being blinded by your superficial love for me. So now I can’t be sorry for having the courage to finally walk away because I had prayed for this day to come. Our time has finally ended but there is always good thing in saying goodbye. I’ll let you go. I’ll let this feeling fade. No matter how unfortunate our story might be, you’re still one of my joys, my heartaches and my lesson. You will remain in my heart but I need to take you out of my mind. I wanted to live my life with you but life isn’t meant to be shared by both of us.
So long, my almost forever, we can’t go against what stars had written for us. You have my forgiveness and I have my freedom. Just because I am hurt doesn’t mean life is not beautiful. If it takes a heartbreak for God’s perfect plan for me, then I know one day I will be healed for good and for something better and that’s something to look forward to.