FOREWORD
SO..THERE ARE TIMES WHEN YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU ARE DOING..LIKE R8 NOW.. I DON'T HAVE ANY FUCKING IDEA WHY I AM WRITING THIS..BUT I WANT TO DO THIS.. .IN FACT I NEED TO..I NEED TO DUMP ALL MY FEELINGS OFF MY CHEST INTO THIS BLANK WHITE SPACE WHICH IS GOOD ENOUGH NOT TO ASK QUESTIONS AND THROW ME INTO YET ANOTHER DARK EPISODE OF DILEMMA ....
SO! HERE WE GO..
BASICALLY I WAS NEVER A MAN OF SPORTS..I SUCK AT EVERY GAME..BUT RECENTLY I DISCOVERED THAT I AM VERY GOOD AT A PARTICULAR ONE , A SIMPLE YET COMPLICATED SICK LITTLE GAME..
'TUG OF WAR'..
EVERY DAY... IN FACT, EVERY MINUTE, MY MIND PLAYS THIS CREEPY LITTLE GAME WITH IT'S FAVORITE OPPONENT..'MY HEART'..
SEE.. THERE'S A LOT OF DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THESE TWO 'SEEMINGLY SAME' WORDS BUT THEY ARE TOTALLY DIFFERENT AND THE INTERESTING PART IS YOU WILL GET TO 'FEEL' THE DIFFERENCE ONLY WHEN YOU FALL IN LOVE...
THEY SAY 'FALL IN LOVE' BECAUSE LITERALLY.. YOU 'FALL'...
YOU FALL INTO A DEEP ABYSS...YOU FALL INTO YOURSELF
YOU FALL FROM THE FACE OF THIS WORLD
AND ALL YOU SEE, FEEL. PERCEIVE IS THE ONE YOU LOVE..AND THE REST OF THE WORLD.....?....WELL... YOU DON'T FUCKING CARE ABOUT IT. ALL YOU CARE ABOUT IS THE ONE YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH.
I NEVER KNEW THAT ONE DAY I WILL BE A VICTIM OF THIS SUGAR COATED LETHAL PARASITE..BUT HERE I AM BLINDLY GROPING IN THE DARKNESS OF THIS IMMATURITY I AM CURSED WITH......GROPING FOR LOVE......