You’ve trained me all my life for these reasons
Reasons that cannot come through to me
I was the disappointment that only happen in fantasy
The self discipline faded into nothingness
Absolute nothingness
You never noticed you didn’t have time
But you knew before me
what a disappointment I would be
You never looked at me
And thought what a blessing I am to be - that blessing
I cannot provide
Never for You
It has hid his eyes from your pride
Look at me now it this what you expected
I am only filled with hope that turned to lazy hazy crazy dreams
Days of summer
Hazy
I provided the passing of time
But Never for You
The images resurrected into my life
Had taken the wrong memories from yours
I am a disappointment that you sadly see yet this was
Never for You
I had disclaimed
You’d always be there
Whether I am crying out or breathing in
You’d see me
The disappointment I became
But only saw my heart
And what it truly loves
No matter the life the discipline the nothingness
But only love you saw
I hold bitterness
But Never for You
I only hold love
That is the blessing
I only hold love
Only for You
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