Paradox

You don't know how this hurts

You don't know how I feel

How it's so good yet so bad

So impossible yet so real

You will never understand

How it feels so deep within

To feel something so light and pure

But so guilty it can only be sin

You won't know the lightning I feel

The sparks of happy pain

The jumping from my beating heart

It never leaves me sane

It's beauty and it's madness

It's both the light and the dark

It's the feeling I never want to leave

Because when it does, it leaves it's mark

It's a gamble, a game of chess

A game I used to play

But I can never play it again

Not after you took my heart away

I used to be filled with love

You left me empty at the core

But I'll never fall again

No, not anymore