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Questions I Want To Ask My Future Self
By Divyanshi Gupta2 min read385 launches - Hey there, How are you?
- I know, someday you'll be reading this, and you'll think.
- How dumb is this woman. Crying over petty stuff.
- Slicing her own throat to satisfy the thirsty.
- Hurting in silence so no one ever knows.
- A guilt queen with an enormous ego.
- Feeling sorry for herself but not letting anyone know.
- But let me ask you this.
- Since you are the only person who will know the answers.
- Did you have to carry the burden of your mistakes for a long time?
- Or did you finally realise,
- That you were supposed to climb the mountains that you were carrying.
- The reasons for which I let go of the man I loved,
- Are they still relevant enough?
- Or do you just get tortured by the hopes of what could have been?
- Did you find the love that you always thought you deserved?
- Or did you just drown yourself in the drought of love?
- Did you finally forgive and accept yourself for who you are?
- Despite of the melodrama that constitutes your being.
- Or do you still feel like you're not good enough?
- Is the man you love, still around ?
- Or has he realised what an annoyingly beautiful labyrinth you are?
- Are you still the woman who is much above her looks?
- Or has the "pretty committee" around you suffocated you?
- Are you still the kindness that you wanted in others?
- Or has the darkness of the reality dimmed your shine?
- But what I really want to ask is;
- All the things which torment me, suffocate me.
- Put me through the constant will of giving up.
- That make me want to take away the gift of ultimate importance.
- All the people who define me by my mistakes and hate me.
- All my mistakes which seem to have unending regret.
- Are they still as significant as they seem now?
- Or do they not matter at all?
- Most importantly,
- Have they ever really did?
- ~ A thoroughly confused soul
